I have been with my husband for 17 yrs and we have been married for 9. He is a very difficult person to deal with, he's bipolar and he has no patience and doesn't know how to handle stress. We have our own business and he is constantly stressing about it. He likes to lash out on me and take things out on me. He's extremely bipolar, one minute he's insulting me and lashing out at me and 10 minutes later he's all lovey dovey. How does he expect me to feel if he has insulted me and lashed out on me 10 minutes ago? He's very annoying and he gets on my nerves, sometimes I just feel like running away and leaving him alone because he gets to the point where I can't stand him. His actions and verbal abuse cause me to have hate towards him. It's like I am losing what I feel for him and he's the one to blame for it. It's his actions and what he says and does that make me feel like that. He can be very nice sometimes, but then turn to a completely mean and heartless person. I wish that there was something that he could do to change because he has real serious mental issues. I sometimes just want to turn in the towel and let him be, because I know that if I was by myself, I would be at peace with myself. I am in constant prayer for me and my son, I also pray for him and it doesn't seem to be working. I'm already at my wits end. I need prayer or a revelation because now I'm at the point where I just feel sorry for him and he's making me feel nothing for him, and I'm afraid that eventually it's going to turn into scornful and hate. Just venting..