The lord wants me to read the bible more than i am willing to, i do it anyways due to our aggreement. When the times i set up with the lord come up to read the bible i absolutely lose it and hate the fact i have to sit down and get into the word. While im reading the feeling doesnt seem to go away... than i get mad and sometimes mock the word due to my absolute non-enjoyment or want of reading the word
(The lord wants me to read 3 chapters every hour of the day every day)
Any advice?
When you became a Christian on what basis did you gain assurance that you were genuinely converted to Christ? This is important, and I am not doubting your Christian profession, but it does concern me that seeing that the Bible has everything that God has to say to mankind, and that the Holy Spirit speaks to you through the Bible, if you don't like reading the Bible, how are you able to hear the voice of the Spirit?
I remember in the first two years of my Christian life I found reading the Bible to be a chore, but that was because the people who discipled me believed that the written Scriptures were the dead letter, while the inner voice of the Spirit was God's true voice. After that two years, I became very dissatisfied because I did all the religious stuff but I didn't really know the God behind it all. So I started to seek God with all my heart to find out how to know Him on a personal basis. One starry night I got out into the middle of a park, looked up to the heavens and said, "God, you can hear my voice, and I need to know you otherwise I'm going to give Christianity the flick and live back in the world. So I have come out here to introduce myself. You are God and I am [my name] and I am very glad to meet you." Immediately, I felt all lit up inside like Times Square, Jesus became very real to me, and the Bible became a living book where I saw things in the pages of Scripture I had never seen before. I believe that I was actually baptised with the Holy Spirit (not the Pentecostal way with the wing nut wacky doodle manifestations), but with the realisation that my true fellowship is with the Father and His Son Jesus Christ, and that my salvation depended on Jesus dying for me on the Cross to take the penalty for my sins, and He rose again to give me eternal life. The words of the hymn, "When I survey the wondrous Cross" became real to me, and it was my heartfelt prayer that night, and it has been absolutely meaningful ever since.
So you might have to start really seeking God that you can know that you have really received the Holy Spirit who speaks to you through the Bible in a way that makes you come alive in the Spirit as you read the pages of Scripture. This is the difference between mere profession of Christianity, and really living and walking in the Spirit allowing God's Word to live within you.
You don't have to take my word for it. Check it out for yourself to see that there is much more to being a Christian believer than just going to church and putting on the Christian badge and doing everything out of a sense of religious duty.