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This was a very odd circumstance that just happened to me. I was on Facebook & got a friend request from someone I didn't know. My account is a joke account, not even with my last name on it, just Alex with an old nickname. I created it exclusively to talk to a few friends who never check their e-mail, so I just had fun with all the personal details. According to the account, I'm 114 years old, working as a Bouncer/DJ at the Krusty Krab in Vatican City, I studied wizardry for 57 years...fun things like that!
I say this because I knew there would be no harm in accepting an odd friend request, especially because I'm part of a large Facebook group that shares nothing but wacky comics. Suspecting her to be from this group, I accepted.
She started a conversation with me last night, which I thought was odd, but I went with it. Pretty soon, it got weird...she asked me if I was alone, and I said yes, then she asked me if I liked sex.
I cannot express how bizarre it feels to literally be offered video sex from a stranger, one who looked quite attractive in her profile picture. This raised a lot of questions, not the least of which was what kind of person offers herself to strangers on the Internet so quickly.
I rejected her offer of switching to video call, saying that her offer sounded very appealing, but I would have to disagree. As I expected, she asked "Why?". I could see what was happening, though I've never been in this sort of situation before. I wanted her to see everything I said as genuine, and as such, I never glossed over the appeal of what she was offering, lest she think I was gay or not interesting or something. I wanted to be a good man, someone who has sexual attractions but chooses something higher.
Shaking from the adrenaline, I gave the briefest explanation I could of why a 22-year old single straight male who's alone would still reject an "free show" of a beautiful woman's body:
I knew a girl named Paige. She was someone I really liked in high school, but she was always around the worst kind of guys. She was a beautiful girl, but the other men saw her beauty as something to use for themselves. I was just a teenager at the time, but as I saw the dignity in her that she had forgotten, and as the other men were using that to their own selfish advantage, I became determined to never use a girl like that.
This is absolutely true. Paige was the turning point in my life, where I stopped looking out for myself & starting looking out for others. It was through the depravity of the men she was with & her losing sight of her own dignity that I started to become who I am today. This was about 4 years ago, and my determination to never use a girl, even if she's offering, has only grown over time.
There really was no fight against temptation here; I had so much moral strength to see the best in women, even when they don't see it in themselves, that it barely crossed my mind to say Yes to her offer. I saw Paige in her, and I would want to beat the hell out of any man who took advantage of Paige when she offered her body so quickly. I was not going to be this man.
The conversation was fairly brief; she though I was being shy. I replied,
It may be really fun, and you do look very beautiful in your profile picture. But this is not shy-ness, this is me seeing you as a true sister in Christ, someone I will try to defend. I would not want my sister to "show herself" to a strange man on the Internet , and even though I don't know you, I still believe that I should do what I can to treat you with respect.
I promised that if she ever needs to talk, I'll be here for her. She immediately said no, she just wants me to give her pleasure. After a little more like this, when it was evident I wasn't going to do it, she just said bye. I wished her a good night & promised to keep her in my prayers...please take a moment to pray for her now, it's what she really needs.
As this progressed, it occurred to me that she probably never heard someone talk to her the way I did.
I don't know if you've ever heard someone talk to you the way I just did; frankly, I've never heard someone talk that way. But as hard as it is to explain, and as hard as it may be for you to understand, I truly do care about you, I mean everything I said, and I am saying all this because I truly believe that you will be better as a result. It is my duty to God & to you that I try to give you something better than the thing you're asking for.
I'm not telling this story to give advice on accepting random friend requests & being offered a free sex show. What I want to do is provide a reminder that there really are good men out there, ask for prayers for this girl, and ask if anyone knows of a short video or article or something I can send to try to help her understand the inherent dignity of her body. It almost brought me to tears, as I realized that Paige might be like this, and nothing I was saying was making a difference. I truly believe that what I said will confuse her enough that she'll look back over the conversation sometime, and I pray to God that some form of wonderful conversion can happen for her. This is not at all how I expected the call to make disciples would play out for me, but if God has prepared me for years to stand strong in this moment, I will be there for her as best as I can.
What I'm asking for advice on is what I can send her. She seemed to have a routine down, which suggests that video sex with strangers is something she does somewhat often; seeing this girl as Paige, that was really hard for me to imagine. I think a short video would be best, something on reverence for the body, not to follow some rules (I don't know if this girl would even care about following the Bible or Church teachings), but as something truly beneficial for her. I really hope we can continue a conversation when she's not so focused on getting pleasure.
As a side note, I've been trying to figure out what sort of spiritual things I can do to prepare for Christmas. Those of you Catholics & Episcopalians & other Christians that use the liturgical calendar know this time as Advent. One interpretation of preparing for Christmas is to prepare for Christ's coming into my life. In starker terms, suppose Christmas is the day I die & meet Jesus for the final judgement; how should I prepare? This conversation also made me realize that Advent may be spent helping others prepare to meet Jesus; explaining to a girl that I want to see her dignity rather than her sexualizing her body is something that I hope will prepare her for the loving God we all have.
I say this because I knew there would be no harm in accepting an odd friend request, especially because I'm part of a large Facebook group that shares nothing but wacky comics. Suspecting her to be from this group, I accepted.
She started a conversation with me last night, which I thought was odd, but I went with it. Pretty soon, it got weird...she asked me if I was alone, and I said yes, then she asked me if I liked sex.
I cannot express how bizarre it feels to literally be offered video sex from a stranger, one who looked quite attractive in her profile picture. This raised a lot of questions, not the least of which was what kind of person offers herself to strangers on the Internet so quickly.
I rejected her offer of switching to video call, saying that her offer sounded very appealing, but I would have to disagree. As I expected, she asked "Why?". I could see what was happening, though I've never been in this sort of situation before. I wanted her to see everything I said as genuine, and as such, I never glossed over the appeal of what she was offering, lest she think I was gay or not interesting or something. I wanted to be a good man, someone who has sexual attractions but chooses something higher.
Shaking from the adrenaline, I gave the briefest explanation I could of why a 22-year old single straight male who's alone would still reject an "free show" of a beautiful woman's body:
I knew a girl named Paige. She was someone I really liked in high school, but she was always around the worst kind of guys. She was a beautiful girl, but the other men saw her beauty as something to use for themselves. I was just a teenager at the time, but as I saw the dignity in her that she had forgotten, and as the other men were using that to their own selfish advantage, I became determined to never use a girl like that.
This is absolutely true. Paige was the turning point in my life, where I stopped looking out for myself & starting looking out for others. It was through the depravity of the men she was with & her losing sight of her own dignity that I started to become who I am today. This was about 4 years ago, and my determination to never use a girl, even if she's offering, has only grown over time.
There really was no fight against temptation here; I had so much moral strength to see the best in women, even when they don't see it in themselves, that it barely crossed my mind to say Yes to her offer. I saw Paige in her, and I would want to beat the hell out of any man who took advantage of Paige when she offered her body so quickly. I was not going to be this man.
The conversation was fairly brief; she though I was being shy. I replied,
It may be really fun, and you do look very beautiful in your profile picture. But this is not shy-ness, this is me seeing you as a true sister in Christ, someone I will try to defend. I would not want my sister to "show herself" to a strange man on the Internet , and even though I don't know you, I still believe that I should do what I can to treat you with respect.
I promised that if she ever needs to talk, I'll be here for her. She immediately said no, she just wants me to give her pleasure. After a little more like this, when it was evident I wasn't going to do it, she just said bye. I wished her a good night & promised to keep her in my prayers...please take a moment to pray for her now, it's what she really needs.
As this progressed, it occurred to me that she probably never heard someone talk to her the way I did.
I don't know if you've ever heard someone talk to you the way I just did; frankly, I've never heard someone talk that way. But as hard as it is to explain, and as hard as it may be for you to understand, I truly do care about you, I mean everything I said, and I am saying all this because I truly believe that you will be better as a result. It is my duty to God & to you that I try to give you something better than the thing you're asking for.
I'm not telling this story to give advice on accepting random friend requests & being offered a free sex show. What I want to do is provide a reminder that there really are good men out there, ask for prayers for this girl, and ask if anyone knows of a short video or article or something I can send to try to help her understand the inherent dignity of her body. It almost brought me to tears, as I realized that Paige might be like this, and nothing I was saying was making a difference. I truly believe that what I said will confuse her enough that she'll look back over the conversation sometime, and I pray to God that some form of wonderful conversion can happen for her. This is not at all how I expected the call to make disciples would play out for me, but if God has prepared me for years to stand strong in this moment, I will be there for her as best as I can.
What I'm asking for advice on is what I can send her. She seemed to have a routine down, which suggests that video sex with strangers is something she does somewhat often; seeing this girl as Paige, that was really hard for me to imagine. I think a short video would be best, something on reverence for the body, not to follow some rules (I don't know if this girl would even care about following the Bible or Church teachings), but as something truly beneficial for her. I really hope we can continue a conversation when she's not so focused on getting pleasure.
As a side note, I've been trying to figure out what sort of spiritual things I can do to prepare for Christmas. Those of you Catholics & Episcopalians & other Christians that use the liturgical calendar know this time as Advent. One interpretation of preparing for Christmas is to prepare for Christ's coming into my life. In starker terms, suppose Christmas is the day I die & meet Jesus for the final judgement; how should I prepare? This conversation also made me realize that Advent may be spent helping others prepare to meet Jesus; explaining to a girl that I want to see her dignity rather than her sexualizing her body is something that I hope will prepare her for the loving God we all have.