- Feb 19, 2017
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I struggle with a lot in terms of mental illness, but I think that the diagnosis I received in Summer 2023 is what explains things the most fluently. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and a big part of that for me is a marked disruption in all of my relationships with other people as well as not having my own sense of self. I find it nearly impossible to know what it is that I want as opposed to what other people want for me to do. They call it "being a chameleon", and I think this is the reason why I'm always having trouble selecting what it is that I want to be. One week I will want to be Christian. The next week, I may want to be Catholic or something else entirely. It's very confusing and disorienting. But I think I've discovered the cure to this mental ailment in the simplest of places!
I've been doing Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) classes with a group for about six months now, and while those classes are extremely helpful, they don't tell me who I need to be. They are not enough on their own to have me live a fulfilling life. If I do not tend to my spiritual health as well, it's all a waste of time, because my spirituality is something that I hold as my most sacred treasure. It's my connection to the universe, so to speak, and what has kept me going even in my lowest of moments.
The cure for my BPD, I believe, would be in allowing myself to surrender to the will of God and embrace Christ more fully. I can allow this illness to continue to define me, or I can begin building up who I am on the foundation of God's word. It's more stable than me trying to build my personality on superficial and worldly things, and the best part of it is that I am not alone! And when I follow Jesus, my priorities seem to come back into focus. I think I want to be a wife and mother someday, and I'd also like to spend my life bettering my community in all the ways that I can (professionally and through volunteering).
May God help me to recover and become the person that I was always meant to be. Amen!
I've been doing Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) classes with a group for about six months now, and while those classes are extremely helpful, they don't tell me who I need to be. They are not enough on their own to have me live a fulfilling life. If I do not tend to my spiritual health as well, it's all a waste of time, because my spirituality is something that I hold as my most sacred treasure. It's my connection to the universe, so to speak, and what has kept me going even in my lowest of moments.
The cure for my BPD, I believe, would be in allowing myself to surrender to the will of God and embrace Christ more fully. I can allow this illness to continue to define me, or I can begin building up who I am on the foundation of God's word. It's more stable than me trying to build my personality on superficial and worldly things, and the best part of it is that I am not alone! And when I follow Jesus, my priorities seem to come back into focus. I think I want to be a wife and mother someday, and I'd also like to spend my life bettering my community in all the ways that I can (professionally and through volunteering).
May God help me to recover and become the person that I was always meant to be. Amen!