Twelve years ago, I was abused by my pastor. He never raped me, but he did sexually harrass me, make inappropriate comments to me, try to touch me, call me late at night and gave me a magazine with suggestive pictures in it. He even locked me in his office once but I managed to get out. He did this to 3 of us in our church (that we know of) including at least one child. (At the time, I was 31 and he was 60+--basically a "dirty old man") After much pain and suffering, we were able to get this "minister" out of our church. (actually, the 'powers that be' simply retired him).
Things went fairly well after this in my church. The problem was that we shared this pastor with 2 other churches and they supposedly never had any trouble with him and didn't believe us. We got a new pastor, but he harped and harped on me to forgive and forget and I just couldn't do it so I quit going to church altogether as did the others that were involved in the abuse.
A couple of months ago, I started dating a great guy that I knew from school who is very active in one of the other 2 churches and he told me that I needed to get myself back into church--that I was backslidden because of this issue and that to get on with my life I have to forgive this creep. I know that I have to do it but I just don't know how. I have had counciling, I have gone to several women's retreats on this, I have read books, and prayed about it. Finally, I just gave up.
I am going to church and to bible study again, but it is a very difficult situation to bring up in the church because of all of the pain that everyone went through. The whole congregation of all 3 churches suffered and there are people that dislike me very much because of all of this.
How do I go about forgiving him?? Do I have to see him and talk to him and tell him?? (Oh, I'm just not strong enough to do that!) How do I go about this? Does anyone have any suggestions?
Thanks for listening and for any help anyone can give me.
Things went fairly well after this in my church. The problem was that we shared this pastor with 2 other churches and they supposedly never had any trouble with him and didn't believe us. We got a new pastor, but he harped and harped on me to forgive and forget and I just couldn't do it so I quit going to church altogether as did the others that were involved in the abuse.
A couple of months ago, I started dating a great guy that I knew from school who is very active in one of the other 2 churches and he told me that I needed to get myself back into church--that I was backslidden because of this issue and that to get on with my life I have to forgive this creep. I know that I have to do it but I just don't know how. I have had counciling, I have gone to several women's retreats on this, I have read books, and prayed about it. Finally, I just gave up.
I am going to church and to bible study again, but it is a very difficult situation to bring up in the church because of all of the pain that everyone went through. The whole congregation of all 3 churches suffered and there are people that dislike me very much because of all of this.
How do I go about forgiving him?? Do I have to see him and talk to him and tell him?? (Oh, I'm just not strong enough to do that!) How do I go about this? Does anyone have any suggestions?
Thanks for listening and for any help anyone can give me.