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This thread is also a confession of an issue in my life with a girl from high school I will only refer to as the “ghost girl” because my methods of “Forgive, forget and forget I've forgotten” have all but failed to find an end to my problem.
I heard a preacher on the radio a few moments ago talking about marriage and it stirred some negative emotions about singleness, because it is rarely ever addressed by preacher sermons from anywhere or anyone one preacher.
In the first half of my problem, I have issues with my spiritual life that need to be resolved, like I know we all have them, but I consider this more of damaged goods. I have had an unresolved addiction that I have had ever since I left high school that I am not sure I can get out of. The preacher was talking on the radio about why we should get married and this one talking point about intimacy stood out to me because as a single and could very well be until the return, I do not have anyone to turn to. I do not want to give up on the Lord but at the same time I am left with this one fear about the afterlife. In Danial during his explanation of singleness in heaven I have also come to this thought about the name thing, like a house of mirrors, or more like the way China and related nations have the pictures and murals of the former dictator Chairman Mao from inside residential bathrooms to even the darkest alleys of every city. I have not read 1984 however I have delved into some chapters with this same type of craziness, and I am thinking could this sound like a “place I do not know yet?” and I am not going to compare apples and IBMs; however.
I believe I may have denied this ghost girl in the sense that I had this to say to the Lord because of her unresolvedness. I did not want her to witness any reward God granted me in heaven that was taken from or a replacement there of this name that was to be given to me. And I am hoping it would be less cynical of the Lord to grant that this name will be his, and I am also hoping that this will not be a sign that this will be what I am looking forward to. Although my Christian focus should be on Jesus, then who is to say that there will be only one and only reference to him like the utopian vision of George Orwell’s Big Brother? This is the fear my doubts have brought me to.
I need help...
I heard a preacher on the radio a few moments ago talking about marriage and it stirred some negative emotions about singleness, because it is rarely ever addressed by preacher sermons from anywhere or anyone one preacher.
In the first half of my problem, I have issues with my spiritual life that need to be resolved, like I know we all have them, but I consider this more of damaged goods. I have had an unresolved addiction that I have had ever since I left high school that I am not sure I can get out of. The preacher was talking on the radio about why we should get married and this one talking point about intimacy stood out to me because as a single and could very well be until the return, I do not have anyone to turn to. I do not want to give up on the Lord but at the same time I am left with this one fear about the afterlife. In Danial during his explanation of singleness in heaven I have also come to this thought about the name thing, like a house of mirrors, or more like the way China and related nations have the pictures and murals of the former dictator Chairman Mao from inside residential bathrooms to even the darkest alleys of every city. I have not read 1984 however I have delved into some chapters with this same type of craziness, and I am thinking could this sound like a “place I do not know yet?” and I am not going to compare apples and IBMs; however.
I believe I may have denied this ghost girl in the sense that I had this to say to the Lord because of her unresolvedness. I did not want her to witness any reward God granted me in heaven that was taken from or a replacement there of this name that was to be given to me. And I am hoping it would be less cynical of the Lord to grant that this name will be his, and I am also hoping that this will not be a sign that this will be what I am looking forward to. Although my Christian focus should be on Jesus, then who is to say that there will be only one and only reference to him like the utopian vision of George Orwell’s Big Brother? This is the fear my doubts have brought me to.
I need help...