I became a Christian in early 2014 - I started going to church, reading the bible, bible study and praying regularly and I have to be honest... god hasn't really changed my life. I hear people all the time say their life is perfect now because of god and that their life has been changed. However, unfortunately I can't say the same. I feel as if I've changed for the better in some ways but I'm mostly the same I was before I became a Christian - I would describe my experience with god as very mediocre. I won't lie some weeks I have stronger faith than other weeks - some weeks I'll read the bible daily and pray daily whilst other weeks I might only do it once or twice a week. But I've never fallen away from god in that I haven't ever rejected god. I don't know it's hard, I feel disheartened. If someone asked me has god changed your life... the honest answer would be no. What can I do.
Thank you for your time and help, god bless.
There's a story in the Gospel of Luke about Christ having a meal with Simon the Pharisee during which a woman begins to wash Jesus' feet with her hair and tears. Simon condemns Jesus for letting the woman do as she is doing. Apparently, she is a woman of ill-repute, perhaps a prostitute, and Simon has only contempt and judgment for her - and Jesus. But Jesus knows Simon's thoughts and tells him a story about two debtors: one owed a great sum and the other comparatively little. They are both forgiven their debts. Jesus asks Simon which of the two debtors loved more the one who released them from their debt. Simon correctly chooses the one with greater debt. Jesus then draws a parallel between his story and the situation he is in with Simon and the weeping woman:
Luke 7:44-47
44 Then He turned to the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave Me no water for My feet, but she has washed My feet with her tears and wiped them with the hair of her head.
45 You gave Me no kiss, but this woman has not ceased to kiss My feet since the time I came in.
46 You did not anoint My head with oil, but this woman has anointed My feet with fragrant oil.
47 Therefore I say to you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much. But to whom little is forgiven, the same loves little."
What's Jesus saying here? Well, Simon loved Jesus not at all because Simon was unaware, in his towering self-righteousness, just how great a sinner he was. He had no idea he was at least as great a sinner - in his own way - as the woman washing Jesus' feet. And because he was unable to see his sin, he was unable to truly appreciate the one who would soon go to the cross and pay Simon's sin-debt (and the sin-debt of all the world).
Many people come to faith in Christ with Simon the Pharisee's attitude. They don't see themselves as the sinful wretch God says they are. And because they don't, they cannot properly appreciate the great act of love and grace that God performed in reaching down into the vile muck of their lives and rescuing them from their sin. They love God little because they believe they have little for which to be forgiven by Him. As a result, their walk with God is fundamentally flawed. You see, the basis for Christian living is love for God.
Matthew 22:35-38
35 Then one of them, a lawyer, asked Him a question, testing Him, and saying,
36 "Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?"
37 Jesus said to him, "'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.'
38 This is the first and great commandment.
The prayer, Bible study, church attendance, tithing, and Christian service in which Christians engage are supposed to arise out of a deep love for God. When this is the motivation for Christian living there is great joy and satisfaction in it. But when that love for God is missing or strangled by a sense of self-righteousness, the Christian life will seem dry, ritualistic and empty.
So, do you love God with all your heart, soul and mind? If not, why not?
Selah.