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Godislove94
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A few weeks ago God said "yes" to something that was very strong in my heart but I was afraid to ask for out of fear that He would say "no". But lately I've had the joy sucked out of me and replaced with the fear that this is coming with a "catch": that I change universities and guilt for not wanting to go there. The school in question is known for being a party school where there is a lot of drug activity and witchcraft that's been going on since the '70's (Kent Ohio if anyone is curious). Now I'm back to where I was but I've been getting mixed messages about it. I don't know, o feel like a "selfish pig" for asking to go back to my original college and that I ask for too much in addition to "if you want to do this you'll go here". It's at the point where I'm so ashamed that I never want to ask God for anything ever again and I'm expecting a no. Despite this I still thank and praise God for all He has done for me every day and will continue to do so even if things don't work out.