The trinity is an expectation of fulfilment that arises in some way whatever circumstance is faced. If I am faced with Hell, the trinity is a way of escape; if I am faced with Heaven, the trinity is a way of prolonging my time there; if I am faced with the beginning, the trinity is a way of explaining why time must begin. It's that simple.
You don't seem to have any qualms about going further and further back in time,
with the same dogmatic view. That will help you find God, but it will not explain anything relative to the present. The two things are different approaches to time: it is a common mistake to assume that you can both find God and explain Time, but this is not true. As I said Time is more preeminent than Spirit and God is Spirit, not Time.
It's a bit like someone who says "I will take a shortcut I haven't taken before, to my destination, since I know the way already and they will thank me for getting them there faster" when getting there "faster" is contingent on "knowing the way" and when you take the shortcut, you do not "know the way". Just because you know God, does not mean you are any more able to explain Time, since Time
was before God. That time does not stop with the revelation of God,
is proof that Time was before God.
Now Time being before God may well be because Time
was in God, but that does not mean that Time
was God, nor does it mean that we should worship Time. It simply means that we should acknowledge Time. If you are thinking about the beginning, you have in some way
already acknowledged Time, it thus remains for you to give Time to God, but if you are thinking about Time as if thinking about Time means you have not acknowledged Time until you get an explanation,
then you are fighting with Time, not God.
There is nothing wrong even with fighting with Time,
except that that means it runs out. So you have a problem: you need God, in order to compensate for Time running out. Once again, this does not mean that Time is subordinate to God, for God, before He was in time
arranged it that Time
could not be subordinate to God, this is how we know that God frees us. For if it was that God controlled time, we would not have free will.
So thankyou for the discussion and the polite critique of my beliefs, but I think I understand them fairly well.