I seem to be under attack this past week with worry and anxiety over my husband who returned to the Middle East for his job until his contract expires in July. He was here at the end of January to attend his father's funeral.
I worry for his health, safety, his anger issues, his salvation (goes to church when in the U.S., claims to pray and love God, but is far from being what we know as a Godly man).....and now I find myself worrying about our marriage and being faithful on top of all that.
Reality (and his email in response to these worries) says yes, the temptation is there, but his love for me is stronger. Why won't the devil leave me alone and just let me rest in the peace in knowing this is true?? I know he gets lonely over there, so the devil reminds me of that constantly. He's not exactly every girl's dream affair as he is overweight (300 pounds at 6'2") and suffers from severe ED from diabetes and other medications he's on, but can have a charming and flirtatious personality. He had (and probably still does, thanks to the internet) a inappropriate content addiction for years.
Certainly we've had a normal share of problems, doubts and suspicions in the past, all which were figments of our imagination. I see this as nothing more than a spiritual attack? Then sometimes my heart/mind wonders if it's GOD speaking to me about something "not being quite right"!
Has anyone else ever experienced this, particularly when separated for lengths of time from their spouse? All I can say is, I'll sure be glad when he's home for good in July (he's medically retiring at age 58-1/2).
And finally, please pray for me that I can find peace in my situation (and it wouldn't hurt to pray that my husband's love for me remains strong enough to avoid the temptations that satan just loves to throw his way). Thanks for listening and praying, brothers and sisters!!
I worry for his health, safety, his anger issues, his salvation (goes to church when in the U.S., claims to pray and love God, but is far from being what we know as a Godly man).....and now I find myself worrying about our marriage and being faithful on top of all that.
Reality (and his email in response to these worries) says yes, the temptation is there, but his love for me is stronger. Why won't the devil leave me alone and just let me rest in the peace in knowing this is true?? I know he gets lonely over there, so the devil reminds me of that constantly. He's not exactly every girl's dream affair as he is overweight (300 pounds at 6'2") and suffers from severe ED from diabetes and other medications he's on, but can have a charming and flirtatious personality. He had (and probably still does, thanks to the internet) a inappropriate content addiction for years.
Certainly we've had a normal share of problems, doubts and suspicions in the past, all which were figments of our imagination. I see this as nothing more than a spiritual attack? Then sometimes my heart/mind wonders if it's GOD speaking to me about something "not being quite right"!
Has anyone else ever experienced this, particularly when separated for lengths of time from their spouse? All I can say is, I'll sure be glad when he's home for good in July (he's medically retiring at age 58-1/2).
And finally, please pray for me that I can find peace in my situation (and it wouldn't hurt to pray that my husband's love for me remains strong enough to avoid the temptations that satan just loves to throw his way). Thanks for listening and praying, brothers and sisters!!
