Hey there everyone
Well, I started going back to church again, I finally found the courage to go and face the people of God once more. I credit that partly to my new medicine, Geodon. My mind is more clear now then it has ever been and only tonight after reading goldenviolet's thread again do I see that going to church was a good idea.
I think with the meds helping my physical mind stay balanced and God's loving grace pouring into my soul anew again has really made a difference. I have learned that fellowship with other people of God is needed, although I am painfully shy, I do get along well with the pastor most times though and he was happy to see me there. I will continue to go.
It wasnt a totally nice experience at church last sunday though, I felt nauseated and then I aquired a terrible headache, mainly due to intense anxiety because I was sitting up front. I think this sunday I will sit towards the back, that way there are no strangers behind me.
I dont know, I just felt like sharing tonight , so I did . nothing can make you feel whole quite like God can .
I hope I dont get into the mindset that I dont belong there or dont fit in. Thats often the case, I start to feel that no one wants me around and I get scared that everyone is hating me, so I stop going and often stay away for very long periods of time. its that silly isolation thing. thats what my counsellor is most concerned about with me. but I am working on it and God willing, my mind will stay clear for a very long time .
Well, I started going back to church again, I finally found the courage to go and face the people of God once more. I credit that partly to my new medicine, Geodon. My mind is more clear now then it has ever been and only tonight after reading goldenviolet's thread again do I see that going to church was a good idea.
I think with the meds helping my physical mind stay balanced and God's loving grace pouring into my soul anew again has really made a difference. I have learned that fellowship with other people of God is needed, although I am painfully shy, I do get along well with the pastor most times though and he was happy to see me there. I will continue to go.
It wasnt a totally nice experience at church last sunday though, I felt nauseated and then I aquired a terrible headache, mainly due to intense anxiety because I was sitting up front. I think this sunday I will sit towards the back, that way there are no strangers behind me.
I dont know, I just felt like sharing tonight , so I did . nothing can make you feel whole quite like God can .
I hope I dont get into the mindset that I dont belong there or dont fit in. Thats often the case, I start to feel that no one wants me around and I get scared that everyone is hating me, so I stop going and often stay away for very long periods of time. its that silly isolation thing. thats what my counsellor is most concerned about with me. but I am working on it and God willing, my mind will stay clear for a very long time .