I am trying to figure out: What is the best way of going about being friends with someone who is romantically attracted to me but with whom I can't see it working out?
He is something of a family friend, and I also work for him (now) casually in his self-employed business(es). We have both been single a long while, he was married 6 years, divorced for 20+, not really looking for anyone till he met me. I have had longer term friendships with several guys that I've led on without meaning to when I was younger, I have gotten better at avoiding this I think, but more recently it seems they lead themselves on. People seem to get attracted too soon before a friendship can develop for the right reasons, the concept of love at first sight is a pet peeve of mine. I'm tired of this dynamic and try to avoid these situations.
In this case, employment (starting from a past crisis situation) has led to a more real kind of friendship in the sense of better able to see each other as we are and getting past the politeness I have a tendency towards. He has his own unique brand of chaos and immaturity even though he is much older than me and attempts amazing things for God. We are similar in a number of ways, but not aligned. And I am very cautious, I like to be reliable and dependable and sometimes accused by him of not being a very good friend in emotional ways, comparing to other platonic friends of his who have been more affectionate. We've gone over many times that I don't see us being more than friends. I'm not immune to being attracted by him, but so far I've been able to avoid admitting it or showing it (I think) since I don't feel I can own it or commit to it and doesn't seem helpful.
So I was surprised when a week ago when he got a bit resentful and said something about my willingness to hug him giving him the idea I might change my mind. Mostly has been short hugs, only a few times has he dared a couple seconds more, I thought I was passive enough. Now I am leery to hug him at all and both of us wish he hadn't said that. I don't know the degree he meant it since it seems a bit inconsistent, maybe it was the heat of the moment, not a consistent thought.
We've had more of a daily skyping friendship in the last month or so, but now both making an effort to dial it back. But he is one of very few guys that seems committed to making a friendship work even if it is all it ever is and that is refreshing.(#1) I don't know if he is in denial or maybe I am, or maybe we can still figure something out that works for both of us. He mentioned offhand without pursuing it: 'If I could just hold you I wouldn't need to marry you.'(#2) Maybe not quite the way I would have said it and I'm afraid to explore it, but in certain ways it summarizes it for me too. Does anyone have experience or advice in trying to make that kind of friendship/ relationship (#1 or #2) work? What kind of friendships are appropriate while waiting vs giving up on the 'right one'? For what it's worth he spends winters out of country and is considering moving there, I believe I am to stay put. I am trying to be open to whatever God is telling me.
He is something of a family friend, and I also work for him (now) casually in his self-employed business(es). We have both been single a long while, he was married 6 years, divorced for 20+, not really looking for anyone till he met me. I have had longer term friendships with several guys that I've led on without meaning to when I was younger, I have gotten better at avoiding this I think, but more recently it seems they lead themselves on. People seem to get attracted too soon before a friendship can develop for the right reasons, the concept of love at first sight is a pet peeve of mine. I'm tired of this dynamic and try to avoid these situations.
In this case, employment (starting from a past crisis situation) has led to a more real kind of friendship in the sense of better able to see each other as we are and getting past the politeness I have a tendency towards. He has his own unique brand of chaos and immaturity even though he is much older than me and attempts amazing things for God. We are similar in a number of ways, but not aligned. And I am very cautious, I like to be reliable and dependable and sometimes accused by him of not being a very good friend in emotional ways, comparing to other platonic friends of his who have been more affectionate. We've gone over many times that I don't see us being more than friends. I'm not immune to being attracted by him, but so far I've been able to avoid admitting it or showing it (I think) since I don't feel I can own it or commit to it and doesn't seem helpful.
So I was surprised when a week ago when he got a bit resentful and said something about my willingness to hug him giving him the idea I might change my mind. Mostly has been short hugs, only a few times has he dared a couple seconds more, I thought I was passive enough. Now I am leery to hug him at all and both of us wish he hadn't said that. I don't know the degree he meant it since it seems a bit inconsistent, maybe it was the heat of the moment, not a consistent thought.
We've had more of a daily skyping friendship in the last month or so, but now both making an effort to dial it back. But he is one of very few guys that seems committed to making a friendship work even if it is all it ever is and that is refreshing.(#1) I don't know if he is in denial or maybe I am, or maybe we can still figure something out that works for both of us. He mentioned offhand without pursuing it: 'If I could just hold you I wouldn't need to marry you.'(#2) Maybe not quite the way I would have said it and I'm afraid to explore it, but in certain ways it summarizes it for me too. Does anyone have experience or advice in trying to make that kind of friendship/ relationship (#1 or #2) work? What kind of friendships are appropriate while waiting vs giving up on the 'right one'? For what it's worth he spends winters out of country and is considering moving there, I believe I am to stay put. I am trying to be open to whatever God is telling me.