Okay I am really sad but I've always been having a tough time with my dad. It is not his fault, he had a worse dad who hit them and was really drunk. My dad has alcohol problems too. There are times when he is absolutely not right, but I know that he is under alcohol and we try to respect him and go away, because we don't want to argue with him. To be honest is really common.
I've posted about my OCD a few times. I have religious OCD, which is not easy. It makes me question a lot of things. It would be like 1 hour or more to explain it, it is really complicated but a real mental illness.
I came back to Catholic faith 1 year ago. I really like it, because confession makes me understand what sin really is (OCD is a bully at this thing. OCD wants me to feel sinful everytime.) and the Holy Eucharist gives me peace. For me peace is a really precious thing, because I feel anxiety a lot.
But right now I can't really understand grave matter sins. I always feel like I committed a mortal sin. I confessed 2 days ago, but right now I feel like I have to confess again.
So, today my dad wanted to play video games with my sister, but recently I don't want to play video games (yes, OCD thing), and I asked if they would like to play board games instead. They told no. I turned on the game for them and went to have a bath. A little later my sister came to me. They couldnt start the game. I explained how to start it and what to do, and they could start it. A little later my dad came out of the room and he was rude. (Something happened and they couldn't play). Then I heard him talking about more rude things. I was thinking about yelling out of the bathroom to him but I was thinking like it may be a sin so I didn't do anything. A little later I heard him talking about more rude things that I am selfish and etc. I yelled out that it is not me who is selfish because it was him who wanted to play. If I were selfish I would play board games.
I immediately felt bad about yelling at him. A little later he came to me, and we were arguing (not in a yelling way, thank God) but then I told them that I don't want this arguments, and that if he can't tell me good things, please leave me alone. I came into my room.
Do you think it was a mortal sin? I am so afraid because if it was, I can only confess on Friday which is 5 days. (work) I confess weekly because I always feel like I am under a mortal sin.
I pray for this family, because I don't want all this. I always try to avoid fights. I pray for them. I try to spread the love, and ask them to not talk about rude things. I have a really good relationship with my mom and my sister, but I don't have a good one with my dad. It caused me identity issues. This year I was able to talk about those with him. Actually, our relationship healed a lot. It is much much much better (thank God). But it is still not the best. I try to tolerate as much as I can. He always finds things to argue about. Sometimes he is totally not right, but I don't get into arguments, because I know they just make me feel bad and they doesn't make things better.
Anyway, when is arguing a mortal sin?
I've posted about my OCD a few times. I have religious OCD, which is not easy. It makes me question a lot of things. It would be like 1 hour or more to explain it, it is really complicated but a real mental illness.
I came back to Catholic faith 1 year ago. I really like it, because confession makes me understand what sin really is (OCD is a bully at this thing. OCD wants me to feel sinful everytime.) and the Holy Eucharist gives me peace. For me peace is a really precious thing, because I feel anxiety a lot.
But right now I can't really understand grave matter sins. I always feel like I committed a mortal sin. I confessed 2 days ago, but right now I feel like I have to confess again.
So, today my dad wanted to play video games with my sister, but recently I don't want to play video games (yes, OCD thing), and I asked if they would like to play board games instead. They told no. I turned on the game for them and went to have a bath. A little later my sister came to me. They couldnt start the game. I explained how to start it and what to do, and they could start it. A little later my dad came out of the room and he was rude. (Something happened and they couldn't play). Then I heard him talking about more rude things. I was thinking about yelling out of the bathroom to him but I was thinking like it may be a sin so I didn't do anything. A little later I heard him talking about more rude things that I am selfish and etc. I yelled out that it is not me who is selfish because it was him who wanted to play. If I were selfish I would play board games.
I immediately felt bad about yelling at him. A little later he came to me, and we were arguing (not in a yelling way, thank God) but then I told them that I don't want this arguments, and that if he can't tell me good things, please leave me alone. I came into my room.
Do you think it was a mortal sin? I am so afraid because if it was, I can only confess on Friday which is 5 days. (work) I confess weekly because I always feel like I am under a mortal sin.
I pray for this family, because I don't want all this. I always try to avoid fights. I pray for them. I try to spread the love, and ask them to not talk about rude things. I have a really good relationship with my mom and my sister, but I don't have a good one with my dad. It caused me identity issues. This year I was able to talk about those with him. Actually, our relationship healed a lot. It is much much much better (thank God). But it is still not the best. I try to tolerate as much as I can. He always finds things to argue about. Sometimes he is totally not right, but I don't get into arguments, because I know they just make me feel bad and they doesn't make things better.
Anyway, when is arguing a mortal sin?