I have the type of job where I need to be ready to present violence at any given moment. I have to be in constant anticipation of it. I have to have the threat of violence on constant display. Its in me also to be a violent person but I am definitly not a person who just uses violence for no reason. Im trying to love my fellow man and I have started to feel a hesitation kinda before doing something that requires a action of violence because on one hand I have to control the situation but on the other hand im supposed to love this person. As a christian do you have a mindset or a place in you heart were you allow violence to exist? as a christian is it wrong for you to have that violent place, is that a part of our self's that we need to cast off to really be able to love someone. I love my wife and my children and with the exception of them turning into zombies there isnt a single violent act I could or would take against them. I cant say that for my neighboor or someone that I encounter. I hope god blesses all of you as well as myself and my family and pray that GOD keeps us safe and delivers us from all the things that separate us from heaven.