True Forgiveness

I was dealing with forgiveness towards my X and others, petty stuff, then a former neighbor...one of the most horrid crimes..can i forgive? Yup..was hard for about 30 seconds until God in still small voice said "what are you doing, what are you thinking?
She was once my neighbor, sort of

Settle the freak down man....

And listen to some music and I missed it..I freaking should have said JESUS, but failed..I knew her..long ago.. met her.. and talked about random stuff..wasn't cruel..I just walked away..left it alone..but saw and was connected... but walked away..just small talk in my Moms hometown...


next thing i know she is in jail for killing her daughter..same freaking base my wife was on, and 7 connections besides...oh no..PTSD

It's my fault..I failed to witness Jesus.I failed..she didn't.. she is a victim of my negligence with the Word of God..

I wrote her, I send her whatever she needs. I love her..
It's all my fault..I could have prevented this, and I failed...

might have been things I missed...GOD! speak clearer..this should not have happened.

I, as a Christian who follows Christ would go to jail for her, if she could be free and live her life...I know, Lisa knows, we know..and it was not her fault.....

It's my fault she is in jail..this would not have happened if I had only spoken the LORD that day or 2, but i just let her walk on by..
I have since stepped up my witness and am insidious, no Roman roads or John 3:16..I do not go there..I hit hard, heavy and fast, and will follow up..

I failed that girl..I am devoted to her the rest of my life..she did not kill her baby..I did, by my negligence back in the day.

I should know better..there are very few true Christians around...they all judge and hate..Jesus would lay down his life for her and ask her if she believed in Him..not todays Christians, they just want her dead.

This needs to change, NOW...

No more revenge or eye for eye..that is against JESUS..I rebuke it and slay it with the sword of the spirit....as my God given weapon of Ephesian 6....

NO ONE TOUCHES MY GIRL! She is not mine, she is in Gods hands now and has been...

I am just a sojourner in this world, called by the LORD, but I will not fail this mission again...

If I die I can fly, and I know some angels, so all ya all haters better back off and repent...

(1 john 4:18) "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear.."

(Proverbs 28:1) "The wicked flee when no man pursueth: but the righteous are bold as a lion."

Meow..you do not want the roar

"Set me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm: for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave: the coals thereof are coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame."
(Song of Solomon 8:6)

Nice Kitty..




Or not so nice Kitty



Go away satan, in Jesus name, just git..you do not want to play here..this is the jungle....and it seems Jesus is Tarzan..


Hey sStan, you like to twist rock songs and change words to play in church? Cool move man..but I don't change words..I just use them as confiscated artillery.... against you word for word...head on, in Jesus name..
can you repent?
Come on..welcome... welcome to the jungle my serpentine..ooo. its gonna bring you down...in Jesus name

hahahaha..


Wanna repent yet Satan? hahahahaha..return to God dude..best way to stop Revelation is you repent..reconcile with God...change history, do the Jonah..Nineveh was not destroyed in 40 days...

Want the scarlet harlot of Babylon? is that is...? Fine, whatever, or are you after Chelsea?



The LORD rebuke you satan, and do not touch what is mine..that is a warning dude in Jesus name...play your little political games all you want and we will come back to that..never touch mine, nothing, ever, or else..In the name of the son of the Living God, Jesus Christ, the messiah....


Who sent that to Iran baby? yeah...what did you think? All ya all..them Iranians need some metal sometimes, heavy on...hahaha..
just little games man...

Hey Satan, why don't you just return to the LORD man? he didn't waste an angel..just repent..you would completely change the course of history and prophecy, but God must forgive..if you in your heart were reorseful..
Consider this option, elsewise, you are

I am also accountable for this..helped plant that church in Russia years ago


"This way too cute to give up on..I always liked the second from left..she is cute..the middle girl also intrigues me..reminds me of Lisa..the first 4 are cute actually..the 5th fat one is the American...but I always liked #2 and #3 both..I kind of like #3 now only..she reminds me so much of Lisa..tall and that look in her eyes.... I used to like #2 also..but more I look at this..#3 is the one I would want.."

I just actually sent that to Putin, the Russia website gov..apparently they unblocked me since the summer..LOL...they will enjoy the remark about the fat American...just more girls I failed..the church closed there

I need to talk to my former pastor and will call as soon as it gets light..this all needs fixed...

Yes I am still faithful to my girl here, but I ain't letting that church slide either

Wow, I guess i went off there a bit..oh well..but the letter i got today seems like we are officially engaged....Now I have to deal with all this..25 years..I'll be dead or very old..test in faithfulness...Lisa set this up i know it (my late wife)..stationed at same base, same training, girl lived next town over from Moms, we have walked the same beach...

On top of that she told me she felt like "shutting down" a few weeks ago and then she got my letters..she was going to kill herself..i just saved her life...she said that...25 years is a long time, and she is only 25....

Thank you GOD! And she is a believer but struggling...


I sent her all the lyrics...... I will not forsake her..
I know Lisa set this up..girl lived by my Mom, and was at same base as my wife and trained same? No coincidence...Lisa sets me up with a girl in jail for 25 years to love and be faithful which means I must be faithful to Lisa..guess I am celibate unless God shakes his mighty hand, tears it down and stars again as the song says, and frees her on appeal, or some other crazy pardon...
I know Lisa did this..she is good....she is so awesome...sets me up with a girl I cannot be with right now, has same PTSD from same base, and I just saved her from suicide which my wife committed..I know...Lisa thinks its cute..on top of that she left the AF site up with the vet benefits before she died (she always deleted history but not that day) and I get her pension but the stipulation is I cannot remarry till age 57..Lisa is a smart alek...
yet she sets me up like this? LOL..cute..Lisa needs to come visit in dreams like a few weeks ago, and maybe we should visit girl in dreams together, she would love that.. and you explain how all the PTSD happened...Thank you for saving her, thank the LORD, and thanks Lisa!

That song is intense..I always liked it..it now has more meaning to me...its haunting.... watch the video and images too...there is a Christian message there, find it!

Jesus talked about being sick and in prison and those who came to him..who does this? (Matthew 25) Churches that sit in their little pews and listen to sermons and go out and live their lives not lifting one dang finger to reach out to anyone? Won't pick up a stranger on road? Priests! Levites! few Samaritans...but a few, a remnant.. and I used to be one when I had a car.

Go do what Jesus said to do..listening to Sunday sermons is nonsense if you do nothing...faith by works and works by faith..works do not save us but true salvation will produce works and that does not mean dropping a check in the offering plate and going to work the next day and never mentioning Jesus one time until Wednesday night Bible study and Sunday service...that is nonsense...hypocrites, generation of vipers, liars, deceivers!

One thing God has taught me is go out and preach the gospel...to everyone..so, if I call fed agents and agencies, so what? No one preaches to them..had one confess Jesus over phone, met a few cool Christians along the way, some rejection..oh well, to be expected...Did i tell the meth addict thief at the motel this July about Jesus and invite him to church..yup..did he go to church..no, his meth friends came over..oh well..i am just the gardener and threw a seed...

Do I toss the "Roman road to salvation" and John 3:16 with a battery of scriptures at them?..NO..Jesus didn't..I use tact and do cite some scripture but just talk about the LORD..they listen...blast them with the evangelical Roman Road and they flee from you fast....

be real...

I should ask her to marry me..big step.. and I would be faithful, even if she is in prison..cheating and adultery are out of the question...I don't play that.

Jesus reigns...ALWAYS, first and foremost..