- Jan 18, 2018
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Hello, my name is Chance. I wanted to share this testimony because it really is miraculous. So, a few years ago, I had a lot of problems with OCD, anxiety, and eventually Tourette Syndrome. The tics that I had were mind numbing intense. But for some reason, I just started having these moments of peace, thinking about God. Now, I had actually not really even cared about God before this. But for some reason I started feeling God trying to help me. It was beautiful. So, I jumped into God’s hand.
Now, it was beautiful at first but then I started feeling depressed and went down a rough road. I was suicidal depressed many times but God saved me through all of it and even saved me through a suicide attempt. Then things slowly got better but I still sinned after I got better and I feel horrible about it stil. However, I started cleaning up my act. But I took another much less intense turn for the worst and began sinning heavily. I hated it. I still repented and I kept trying but I still fell short quite a bit. Eventually, just a few weeks ago, I sinned and things hot really bad. See, I asked God for forgiveness and heard a resounding “No”. It was heartbreaking. But even though I heard it, I still felt this still small voice pushing me to continue on and keep persevering in my faith. That particular phrase popped into my head a lot and it’s not that I recommend everyone live by. “Persevere in faith”. So, I begged God for forgiveness. I cried and irepented. But something happened. Something in me changed. I didn’t care about he’ll anymore, I didn’t see it like that. Instead, I cared about God. I cared for maybe the first time about how horrible it would feel to be cut off from God’s love and that made me realize how much God loved me. I believe God changed my whole mind. And I wasn’t entirely sure until it happened. Miracles. Now, after I got that scare that God wouldn’t forgive me, even though I still had that still small voice, I fasted for three days and tried to draw near to God. Now, a few things helped me but the thing that really helped the most is what happened the second day. I felt compelled to tell my uncle about what was going on and how I felt and he mentioned that we should listen to Gospel music. I thought that it was a great idea and really wished we could do it. That’s when it first started.
First of all, on the third day, my uncle got a call from my aunt that my cousin needed picked up from the airport. It just happened to be an hour and a half there and back. So, the next day we did it. So, we listened to Gospel music on the way and I really saw the love of God. But as soon as we got into the airport, I felt condemned again. However, on the way back, we did the same thing and I still felt condemned but kind of better. Then we parked in the cigarette shop and I stayed in the car. This is when I first prayed for God to show me his power to send angels to protect me and to help me. I felt compelled to and I immediately started to feel better. Then when we got to the house, I felt compelled to listen to Gospel music. So I did. Then my life was restored. Thats when God showed me that he truly still loved me because he sent me this very special song. It’s called NeedToBreathe Testify. It made me explode emotionally with tears of Joy and then I realized, I was still trying to live for myself. I just had to let Go and God would help and accept me. So I did. That night I felt better. But I started feeling bad again the next day. So I kept asking God for help and that night I prayed to God to help me again and he did it the second night too. But again, the next day I was depressed again, this time I begged to God again and he did the same thing. Except this time, he gave me even more peace and happiness than the last time. After gat, I started trying even harder and to this day, every time I honestly seek God through prayer, he always answers me. It’s beautiful.
I write this testimony so that anyone who reads it knows that God will always be there for you. I just hope you know that. God bless you and honestly praise God.
Now, it was beautiful at first but then I started feeling depressed and went down a rough road. I was suicidal depressed many times but God saved me through all of it and even saved me through a suicide attempt. Then things slowly got better but I still sinned after I got better and I feel horrible about it stil. However, I started cleaning up my act. But I took another much less intense turn for the worst and began sinning heavily. I hated it. I still repented and I kept trying but I still fell short quite a bit. Eventually, just a few weeks ago, I sinned and things hot really bad. See, I asked God for forgiveness and heard a resounding “No”. It was heartbreaking. But even though I heard it, I still felt this still small voice pushing me to continue on and keep persevering in my faith. That particular phrase popped into my head a lot and it’s not that I recommend everyone live by. “Persevere in faith”. So, I begged God for forgiveness. I cried and irepented. But something happened. Something in me changed. I didn’t care about he’ll anymore, I didn’t see it like that. Instead, I cared about God. I cared for maybe the first time about how horrible it would feel to be cut off from God’s love and that made me realize how much God loved me. I believe God changed my whole mind. And I wasn’t entirely sure until it happened. Miracles. Now, after I got that scare that God wouldn’t forgive me, even though I still had that still small voice, I fasted for three days and tried to draw near to God. Now, a few things helped me but the thing that really helped the most is what happened the second day. I felt compelled to tell my uncle about what was going on and how I felt and he mentioned that we should listen to Gospel music. I thought that it was a great idea and really wished we could do it. That’s when it first started.
First of all, on the third day, my uncle got a call from my aunt that my cousin needed picked up from the airport. It just happened to be an hour and a half there and back. So, the next day we did it. So, we listened to Gospel music on the way and I really saw the love of God. But as soon as we got into the airport, I felt condemned again. However, on the way back, we did the same thing and I still felt condemned but kind of better. Then we parked in the cigarette shop and I stayed in the car. This is when I first prayed for God to show me his power to send angels to protect me and to help me. I felt compelled to and I immediately started to feel better. Then when we got to the house, I felt compelled to listen to Gospel music. So I did. Then my life was restored. Thats when God showed me that he truly still loved me because he sent me this very special song. It’s called NeedToBreathe Testify. It made me explode emotionally with tears of Joy and then I realized, I was still trying to live for myself. I just had to let Go and God would help and accept me. So I did. That night I felt better. But I started feeling bad again the next day. So I kept asking God for help and that night I prayed to God to help me again and he did it the second night too. But again, the next day I was depressed again, this time I begged to God again and he did the same thing. Except this time, he gave me even more peace and happiness than the last time. After gat, I started trying even harder and to this day, every time I honestly seek God through prayer, he always answers me. It’s beautiful.
I write this testimony so that anyone who reads it knows that God will always be there for you. I just hope you know that. God bless you and honestly praise God.