I'm stressed from work. I have been assigned a project which after working a few months into it found out is beyond my capability to deliver. At least not to a professional standard. This is a big project and it is too far in and late to pull out and no one else in my company is able to help me (delivery wise). Partly because the project scope was not defined properly by the main contractor and we underestimated the complexities of it. I'm constantly underdelivering during meetings and the customer knows it. It is really stressing me out because I don't like to underdeliver. This is eating into my mental health. I'm burnt out. I don't have any motivation to work. I'm living each day scrapping by the bare minimum of project delivery. I can't take this any longer. I just want this to end. Days will go by paralyzed with inaction and doubt. This is the first in my life to ever have days like these. Where time moves so fast and I'm praying for time to stop. I needed time to stop for me to catch up (if this make sense).
I have talked to my boss and he is quite understanding. But understanding doesn't deliver the project. I still have to do something I know I will fail and make a mess of it. I'm trying but I can't even say it's trying my best. I have told my boss that I would be leaving the company. I feel guilty for not performing on top of the stress. I don't know what I will do when I have served my notice period. I'm thinking of a sabbatical. Money might be tight for a while.
I can't tell my parents regarding this. They are the type to over worry which add more to my stress and guilt.
When I put it into word, it doesn't seem so bad reading back but reality is it is really severe for me. I really feel trapped at this moment and words can't convey it fully. Am I worried about my reputation? my professional pride? my responsibilities towards others? I can't tell. All I know is I'm failing myself.
I have talked to my boss and he is quite understanding. But understanding doesn't deliver the project. I still have to do something I know I will fail and make a mess of it. I'm trying but I can't even say it's trying my best. I have told my boss that I would be leaving the company. I feel guilty for not performing on top of the stress. I don't know what I will do when I have served my notice period. I'm thinking of a sabbatical. Money might be tight for a while.
I can't tell my parents regarding this. They are the type to over worry which add more to my stress and guilt.
When I put it into word, it doesn't seem so bad reading back but reality is it is really severe for me. I really feel trapped at this moment and words can't convey it fully. Am I worried about my reputation? my professional pride? my responsibilities towards others? I can't tell. All I know is I'm failing myself.