I have tried to stop smoking a lot of times. Usually throws me into a massive depression and I end up cutting. I am trying to make the choice not to cut and do other things when the urge hurts.
My Pastor knows about this as my husband is redoing the bathroom(he is not a Christian) and he was telling the Pastor that last time I tried to stop the self harm got really bad and asked if he could keep an eye too when at the church for signs of depression and all that.
My Pastor and I talked some today. After therapy I went right to the church. Knew if I came home I would get smokes from my neighbor or go to the store.
He made it very clear that he would rather see me smoking than doing anything to hurt myself. He is a very understanding man. He smoked till about 10 years ago. He told me he understand addictions and most people in the church are recovering addicts or are going through recovery.
Please pray I can stay strong and be able to put smokes down and at the same time not self harm. I need lots of prayers.
My Pastor knows about this as my husband is redoing the bathroom(he is not a Christian) and he was telling the Pastor that last time I tried to stop the self harm got really bad and asked if he could keep an eye too when at the church for signs of depression and all that.
My Pastor and I talked some today. After therapy I went right to the church. Knew if I came home I would get smokes from my neighbor or go to the store.
He made it very clear that he would rather see me smoking than doing anything to hurt myself. He is a very understanding man. He smoked till about 10 years ago. He told me he understand addictions and most people in the church are recovering addicts or are going through recovery.
Please pray I can stay strong and be able to put smokes down and at the same time not self harm. I need lots of prayers.