Do any of your find that when you're "good", everything else in your life is good?
I am really starting to believe that the more I sin, the worse my health will be. I was raised in a strict christian home until I was 15 or so. My health is my main problem, since I had my colon removed when I was 11 due to Ulcerative colitis, and have other auto-immune related issues as well. I noticed that for the first 5 or so years after my first surgery, I was pretty healthy aside from the fact that I was missing half of my gut. I stopped having faith and tryed to ignore/disbelieve in any god when I was 16. That's also when I started being concerned about worldy things and let my morals down. After that I started feeling tired all the time, didn't have energy, etc. When I was 17, I had my first sexual experience, and almost immediately afterwards I got a severe bowel infection and had to be hospitalized. That has been the trend in my life since then. Now that I've rededicated my life to God, it seems that when I do things that are unfavorable in His eyes, I get more ill than I was when I wasn't a christian. So, it seems that I'm being punished for anything "bad" that I do. I've been putting a great effort into avoiding everything "bad", like anger, jealousy, etc., but I've also had a bowel infection since January, and it just won't go away. And for example, say I get mad at my BF and am difficult to deal with, I could go to bed early, but still wake up too sick to go to work the next morning. It's pretty annoying, and I don't really know what else to do besides obeying God and taking my medication. Now I'm probably going to need a couple more surgeries to fix this.
I'm not posting this to gain sympathy or anything, but I'd like to know what you all believe about sin in regards to your life.
I am really starting to believe that the more I sin, the worse my health will be. I was raised in a strict christian home until I was 15 or so. My health is my main problem, since I had my colon removed when I was 11 due to Ulcerative colitis, and have other auto-immune related issues as well. I noticed that for the first 5 or so years after my first surgery, I was pretty healthy aside from the fact that I was missing half of my gut. I stopped having faith and tryed to ignore/disbelieve in any god when I was 16. That's also when I started being concerned about worldy things and let my morals down. After that I started feeling tired all the time, didn't have energy, etc. When I was 17, I had my first sexual experience, and almost immediately afterwards I got a severe bowel infection and had to be hospitalized. That has been the trend in my life since then. Now that I've rededicated my life to God, it seems that when I do things that are unfavorable in His eyes, I get more ill than I was when I wasn't a christian. So, it seems that I'm being punished for anything "bad" that I do. I've been putting a great effort into avoiding everything "bad", like anger, jealousy, etc., but I've also had a bowel infection since January, and it just won't go away. And for example, say I get mad at my BF and am difficult to deal with, I could go to bed early, but still wake up too sick to go to work the next morning. It's pretty annoying, and I don't really know what else to do besides obeying God and taking my medication. Now I'm probably going to need a couple more surgeries to fix this.
I'm not posting this to gain sympathy or anything, but I'd like to know what you all believe about sin in regards to your life.