It was a girl at my school's 16th birthday last week. She should be having fun with her friends, laughing and tearing open presents. She should be going out and having the time of her life.
But she's not, because she's dead. Two years ago she disappeared and we never saw her alive again. She was found six months later in a woods somewhere, because someone, was sick enough to abduct her. To end her whole life for a couple of seconds of his sick, perverted pleasure. And to leave us all without her, to leave a sister without a sister, a mum and dad without a daughter and friends without a friend.
I don't even know why i'm getting so het up about it. I wasn't a close friend. She was two years above me, whilst she was 13 I was just 12. She was doing SATS and I was just getting used to a new secondary school. But I still miss her loads. A day doesn't go by when I don't think about her. The press went mad and a whole nation mourned when she was found. But no one experienced it like our school did, with press everywhere just trying to get a good story.
Everyone is moving on now, but I can't forget her. I can't forget her smile or anything. And sometimes, when i'm depressed, unhappy, angry, jealous, if i've mucked something up... I always think, it should of been me, and not her. She wouldn't have messed everything up like me. She was happy but now she's gone.
Sorry this was a ramble. Had to get it out really. But what I don't get is how I prayed EVERY NIGHT for six whole months.. hundreds and hundreds of times. Some alone, sometimes with others. I was so convinced God would listen and bring her back. But He DIDN'T.
Why??
But she's not, because she's dead. Two years ago she disappeared and we never saw her alive again. She was found six months later in a woods somewhere, because someone, was sick enough to abduct her. To end her whole life for a couple of seconds of his sick, perverted pleasure. And to leave us all without her, to leave a sister without a sister, a mum and dad without a daughter and friends without a friend.
I don't even know why i'm getting so het up about it. I wasn't a close friend. She was two years above me, whilst she was 13 I was just 12. She was doing SATS and I was just getting used to a new secondary school. But I still miss her loads. A day doesn't go by when I don't think about her. The press went mad and a whole nation mourned when she was found. But no one experienced it like our school did, with press everywhere just trying to get a good story.
Everyone is moving on now, but I can't forget her. I can't forget her smile or anything. And sometimes, when i'm depressed, unhappy, angry, jealous, if i've mucked something up... I always think, it should of been me, and not her. She wouldn't have messed everything up like me. She was happy but now she's gone.
Sorry this was a ramble. Had to get it out really. But what I don't get is how I prayed EVERY NIGHT for six whole months.. hundreds and hundreds of times. Some alone, sometimes with others. I was so convinced God would listen and bring her back. But He DIDN'T.
Why??