My Wife ask me for a separation 2 years ago to salvage our marriage. I did not listen, wanting to solve it myself. I thought I had control over my life. We have 2 boys 5 and 3, in the past 6 months I have been angry at her for not showing any emotions towards me. We were at a halloween party and she was standing next to me and her friend. I asked her if I could kiss her, she did not answer, I asked if I could kiss her friend, she said sure. I regret that day. With no ill thoughts in mind, i kissed another one of our friends, simply saying goodbye. I told her that it menat nothing, that I was just saying goodnight in front of everyone. She sees the worst in everything i do now. Honestly, she has wanted out of our marriage for approx. 3 years now. Ive emotionally hurt her by asking for a divorce in the past without meaning it. Saying out loud the angry thoughts ive had towards her. I regret every bit of it. We have been married 8 years, its going to be over. That is the extent of my cheating. I have stopped drinking since December so that the devil in the bottle does not ever make me do that again. Iam not an alcoholic, only the occationaly drink at parties. I have said iam so sorry, she looked me in the eye and told me that she has forgiven me but that if I really wanted to make her happy that I would let her go easily. I agreed to it only becuase i told her that it would make her happy and becuase I want to be friends with her and possibly grow once again to husband and wife. Her mind is made up and my heart has stopped beating. Should I give up for her sake? How long before I try to show her that I love her and want her back?