< staff edit > . Every since I was a child, I've had terrible intrusive thoughts and images in the mind as a result of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Paraphilia Disorder. Paraphilia Disorder is a biomedical term used to describe sexual arousal to objects, situations, or individuals that are not part of normative stimulation and that may cause distress or serious problems for the paraphiliac or persons associated with him or her. A Paraphilia involves sexual arousal and gratification towards sexual behavior that is atypical and extreme.
Paraphilia is also described as recurrent, intense sexually arousing fantasies, sexual urges, or behaviors generally involving: Non-human objects, The suffering or humiliation of oneself or one's partner, Children and Non-consenting person
I received Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior in the year of 1997, but it was then up till now that these thoughts and images in my mind have been tormenting me throughout the day and even in my sleep at night which causes me to have nocturnal emissions. I have been struggling with sexual sin due to these thoughts and images for 16 years now. I continue to keep running to the Lord for repentance, deliverance, healing and restoration, but it becomes hard at times.
The reason being is I have been enslaved to sexual sin brought on by these thoughts and images. As a result, I have been daily dealing with shame, guilt, self hatred, self condemnation, depression, oppression, disappointment, discouragement, doubt, confusion, fear and anxiety. It's gotten to where I am afraid to be around women or go outside only to be exposed to temptation. I just feel so trapped in this sin and at times I doubt salvation. I often feel like I am holding onto unrepented sin. I have lost many nights of sleep and it's like I have no joy or peace.
So, just please keep me in prayer < staff edit > . Thank you for your prayers and encouragement.
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