Hello, for those of you here I'm looking for help with my situation (also i dont know if this is the right thread to post this but never mind that) from bible scriptures to reassurance, whatever the Lord put in you to say every little bit helps me so where do I begin?
This has happened to me a long time ago maybe when I was 11 years old anyways it all started when I was browsing the Web and a pop up showed up and it was a naked woman I closed it instantly and asked God to forgive me but the devil knew it was his chance to strike and put the last of wanting to look at it more and I did, more and more and one night ready to go to bed these bad thoughts of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit came into my mind and it scared me so bad that I was sick throwing up and asking for forgiveness it lasted for a while and went away and forgot it but just recently around October it happened again and it hit hard this time I felt like I hurt my heavenly Father, my friend I quit work. This at the time I truly felt like I hit the bottom of the barrel I did the sin that will not be forgiven, I wanted to end my life story there than have this in my head but I continued to keep going everyday this depression this horrible feeling of having these thoughts going through it stopped everything I was destroyed I kept imagining that God has left me and I felt sicker, didn't eat, didn't do anything stopped training to go to the military and stopped learning for college I kept asking for forgiveness, kept praising him but I didn't get better no peace until late November I read some forums here about people also going through it and hear some testimonies at church about people going through some hard times and I recovered a little bit but I still have some guilt about what happened, I still see that I someone who grew up with the Lord had this happen to him nd I won't be forgiven I still have no motivation to do the things in life like school etc I still get the sick stomach feeling and the thoughts still pop in every so often. I feel like I can't do things in my life cause I'm so focused on having those thoughts from coming in. That's why I've came to this site to see if I could help from you guys and talk about this and get it off my chest and see what answers you and Lord give me.
So thank you if you read this long post about my problem.
Take care and God bless you all.
This has happened to me a long time ago maybe when I was 11 years old anyways it all started when I was browsing the Web and a pop up showed up and it was a naked woman I closed it instantly and asked God to forgive me but the devil knew it was his chance to strike and put the last of wanting to look at it more and I did, more and more and one night ready to go to bed these bad thoughts of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit came into my mind and it scared me so bad that I was sick throwing up and asking for forgiveness it lasted for a while and went away and forgot it but just recently around October it happened again and it hit hard this time I felt like I hurt my heavenly Father, my friend I quit work. This at the time I truly felt like I hit the bottom of the barrel I did the sin that will not be forgiven, I wanted to end my life story there than have this in my head but I continued to keep going everyday this depression this horrible feeling of having these thoughts going through it stopped everything I was destroyed I kept imagining that God has left me and I felt sicker, didn't eat, didn't do anything stopped training to go to the military and stopped learning for college I kept asking for forgiveness, kept praising him but I didn't get better no peace until late November I read some forums here about people also going through it and hear some testimonies at church about people going through some hard times and I recovered a little bit but I still have some guilt about what happened, I still see that I someone who grew up with the Lord had this happen to him nd I won't be forgiven I still have no motivation to do the things in life like school etc I still get the sick stomach feeling and the thoughts still pop in every so often. I feel like I can't do things in my life cause I'm so focused on having those thoughts from coming in. That's why I've came to this site to see if I could help from you guys and talk about this and get it off my chest and see what answers you and Lord give me.
So thank you if you read this long post about my problem.
Take care and God bless you all.