cheetsbeme71 said:
i cant get past the idea that my thoughts are not my own... my mind is not my own becuase everything i think was put there by God. if pre-destination is true in that our salvation is pre-determined (whcih romans 8:29-30 supports) and those who are not saved are pre-destined to hell, then how can that pre-destination stop there. God must have decided our every move and thought before we were created. im only really restating what i said above to try to make my thoughts more clear.
I came very close to being what is commonly known today as a "Calvinist". However, thoughts such as the ones you are having is the danger with Calvinism. I have given it a ton of thought, prayer and study - and have concluded that I am somewhere inbetween.
HOWEVER - let me not give a true Calvinist a bad name. They do believe in election and predestination - however, it is not exactly as you described - and I do believe you have confused some of what you have been taught by this bible teacher of yours.
Your thoughts are your own...the Bible teaches that. Also, Calvinists do not believe you have no choice in anything - just that your choices are decided upon who you serve...Christ - or the world. I'm not really explaining myself properly - but I am sure there will be some true Calvinists who can help you during this struggle, especially since you seem to be leaning towards the Calvinist train of thought. Reformationalist and Gabriel are awesome at answering questions.
I can not be of further help as, like I said earlier, am inbetween in my theology - I can not be labled as eother a Calvninst or Arminian.
After typing this I am realizing that perhaps you know not of these terms. So to clarify...
Calvinism: Theology based on Predestination and the Doctrins of Grace. Total Depravity, Unconditional election, Limited Attonement, Irresitable Grace, Perseverance of the Saints.
Arminanism: Theology based on Free will and acceptance of Grace. Depravity (but not completely), Gods forknowledge of His elect based on the acceptance of his attonement for ALL, Ability to deny Gods gift, and ability to lose ones salvation.
I am inbetween. For one, I do not believe in limited attonement, but I also do not believe one can lose their salvation.
Sorry to confuse you further.