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Brothers and sisters this is a serious request for prayer! I attended the Church of Scotland enquirers conference in January 2004 with a view to entering the lay pulpit supply ministry(We call it the readership in Scotland) I have had a strong desire to be involved in teaching ministry for some time and thought to test the call further. At the time I was a member of St Georges Tron church here in Glasgow under the ministry of Dr Sinclair B Ferguson. He responded to a call back to Westminster Theological Seminary at their newly formed Dallas campus. I felt unsettled and felt that I would like to be more involved in a ministry role. My own parish minister had requested prayer from the Tron (I wasnt aware that my local minister was evangelical) as I live in his parish I thought it to be in Gods providence so I moved there with a view to more active service Although the minister was broadly evangelical most of the congregation were not. In fact the majority of the Kirk session was nominal in my estimation. No prayer meeting or mid week bible study and no outreach programme!
When I became a member I thought I could fit into an evangelistic/outreach role in the church and so I decided to further my theological knowledge by going on the readership training course.
After some months of thinking and praying about this it became clear to me that the problems in my new fellowship were much deeper than I had first thought. The preaching wasnt as succinct and direct as I had been used to from my previous church. The congregation was very inward looking. The minister had laboured here for 30+ years with no visible fruit or growth.
Eventually I succeeded in my suggestions of having a weekly prayer/bible study group and initially we had 12-14 people attending. Meanwhile I had been voted onto the congregational board and took up the post of fabric convenor and church officer. I wrote articles for the church magazine which were quite overtly evangelical in their content. Usually of an exegetical nature taking a passage of scripture and expounding on it. They didnt go down too well with some! I also kept a free book desk going but no one ever took the free literature and at one point the session clerk asked me to remove one particular book (Knowing God by JI Packer) Of course the minister was all for this but I got the distinct feeling as the months rolled by that he was happy for me to Take the heat as it were! Eventually he left me to lead the study group/prayer meeting and the numbers rapidly dwindled to only two of us.(Well scripture says: Where two or three so we were at the minimum!) We faithfully kept this going but in the background there were murmurings of Waste of time! As the months rolled into over a year it was quite plain to me that the gospel was being veiled. My desire for outreach and evangelism dwindled because in the words of CH Spurgeon It would seem not good for a man to be converted under an evangelical ministry if he is to be brought into a congregation in which the atmosphere is arctic My thoughts were that there would need to be some fishing within the boat before I could cast a net into the water. As the months rolled on I identified that there were infact some very poorly fed sheep in the fold who had never been taught that we need to Gell and become a real fellowship. I remember one particular conversation with a Christian lady who had no grasp of the Sovereignty of God and thought that He was surprised by the little things we did for Him My antenna glowed hot at the implication of her statement!
I was becoming increasingly agitated at this situation and despaired at the thought that I was living in a very needy parish full of people with no shepherd! I relayed this concern to a very dear friend who suggested that maybe I should become a shepherd. So exactly one year after attending the enquirers conference I enrolled again with a view to testing a call to full time ministry.
I have passed all the preliminary stages and have been appointed a coordinator who is a full time minister and will help me to test my call over the next six months. Thereafter I go onto a period of further assessment which will last another six months. Meanwhile our own minister has announced that he is demitting the charge and moving on which leaves my home church with no minister. He announced this at a joint meeting of the session and board on Wednesday evening. On Thursday I was informed that I should start attending my coordinators church with a view to being more involved in ministry activities. This means that I will also need to resign as church officer and board convenor at my own church. I can only come to the conclusion (After a pretty lengthy prayer walk) that the reason I was placed in my local church was to see how not to do it and as a warning that if the gospel is veiled death is imminent!
All things being equal I should be ordained in 2010 and I would dearly relish the challenge of being called back to my old church as minister. Of course I realise that the Lord may have other plans for me and Its unlikely that I would be called back to a charge in which I was initially unpopular because of my evangelical stance.
I hope you will remember me and my home church in your prayers. Thankyou..
When I became a member I thought I could fit into an evangelistic/outreach role in the church and so I decided to further my theological knowledge by going on the readership training course.
After some months of thinking and praying about this it became clear to me that the problems in my new fellowship were much deeper than I had first thought. The preaching wasnt as succinct and direct as I had been used to from my previous church. The congregation was very inward looking. The minister had laboured here for 30+ years with no visible fruit or growth.
Eventually I succeeded in my suggestions of having a weekly prayer/bible study group and initially we had 12-14 people attending. Meanwhile I had been voted onto the congregational board and took up the post of fabric convenor and church officer. I wrote articles for the church magazine which were quite overtly evangelical in their content. Usually of an exegetical nature taking a passage of scripture and expounding on it. They didnt go down too well with some! I also kept a free book desk going but no one ever took the free literature and at one point the session clerk asked me to remove one particular book (Knowing God by JI Packer) Of course the minister was all for this but I got the distinct feeling as the months rolled by that he was happy for me to Take the heat as it were! Eventually he left me to lead the study group/prayer meeting and the numbers rapidly dwindled to only two of us.(Well scripture says: Where two or three so we were at the minimum!) We faithfully kept this going but in the background there were murmurings of Waste of time! As the months rolled into over a year it was quite plain to me that the gospel was being veiled. My desire for outreach and evangelism dwindled because in the words of CH Spurgeon It would seem not good for a man to be converted under an evangelical ministry if he is to be brought into a congregation in which the atmosphere is arctic My thoughts were that there would need to be some fishing within the boat before I could cast a net into the water. As the months rolled on I identified that there were infact some very poorly fed sheep in the fold who had never been taught that we need to Gell and become a real fellowship. I remember one particular conversation with a Christian lady who had no grasp of the Sovereignty of God and thought that He was surprised by the little things we did for Him My antenna glowed hot at the implication of her statement!
I was becoming increasingly agitated at this situation and despaired at the thought that I was living in a very needy parish full of people with no shepherd! I relayed this concern to a very dear friend who suggested that maybe I should become a shepherd. So exactly one year after attending the enquirers conference I enrolled again with a view to testing a call to full time ministry.
I have passed all the preliminary stages and have been appointed a coordinator who is a full time minister and will help me to test my call over the next six months. Thereafter I go onto a period of further assessment which will last another six months. Meanwhile our own minister has announced that he is demitting the charge and moving on which leaves my home church with no minister. He announced this at a joint meeting of the session and board on Wednesday evening. On Thursday I was informed that I should start attending my coordinators church with a view to being more involved in ministry activities. This means that I will also need to resign as church officer and board convenor at my own church. I can only come to the conclusion (After a pretty lengthy prayer walk) that the reason I was placed in my local church was to see how not to do it and as a warning that if the gospel is veiled death is imminent!
All things being equal I should be ordained in 2010 and I would dearly relish the challenge of being called back to my old church as minister. Of course I realise that the Lord may have other plans for me and Its unlikely that I would be called back to a charge in which I was initially unpopular because of my evangelical stance.
I hope you will remember me and my home church in your prayers. Thankyou..