I am 35 with a baby conceived my a donor. please do not judge or say I am going to hell. I am saved and been baptized and trying to live my life the Christian way. Pretending to be straight in Church and going to try and date men in the future. no sex before marriage etc.
I am so confused. I split up from my ex of nearly 3 years, it was her that brought me Jesus. She was born again but completely gay. I was horrible to her and she was constantly chatting to other girls on facebook saying she wa just helping them and they were just Christians etc. I am so confused it was sucha volatile relationship but I did love her and 9 months later miss. I told her to get out of my life in a really horrible way. Her last words are you are not a Christian. I am very much, I was heavily pregnant and fed up with her constantly on facebook and talking to other women yet accusing me of being the cheat.
I was not perfect either. Now a week after I told her to go away from my life, we were jut trying to be friends but I found this difficult. She has a new Girlfriend and writes on facebook how happy they are, how she met the love of her life. even though they must have just had one date and now they are together. They look so happy. She won't let me see the dog I bought, and told a friend of mine of that she had moved on, yet when I was with her she never had that level of respect when I was with her. She always checked on her exes on facebook. I blocked her. I know this is all unchristian but she did take me to church, introduce me to Christians if not for her maybe i never would have walked in to a church on my own like I did.
I am having trouble letting go. Its like satan is attacking my mind. I think she won the lottery, she is having a better life than me. This woman has everything more money. But my thing is I have agreat family, including my daughter God bless. and I may not have money but I have a heart. I bought loads of stuff, dining table,m TV, Dog, helped her with bills all the time. I know I said horrible things but she did too. I wish she would be my friend again. I have prayed but now this other woman on the scene. Should I write a letter or let it go and give it to God? I tried giving it to God but take it back and make myself miserable again.
Help please. Christian gays would love some advice.
I am so confused. I split up from my ex of nearly 3 years, it was her that brought me Jesus. She was born again but completely gay. I was horrible to her and she was constantly chatting to other girls on facebook saying she wa just helping them and they were just Christians etc. I am so confused it was sucha volatile relationship but I did love her and 9 months later miss. I told her to get out of my life in a really horrible way. Her last words are you are not a Christian. I am very much, I was heavily pregnant and fed up with her constantly on facebook and talking to other women yet accusing me of being the cheat.
I was not perfect either. Now a week after I told her to go away from my life, we were jut trying to be friends but I found this difficult. She has a new Girlfriend and writes on facebook how happy they are, how she met the love of her life. even though they must have just had one date and now they are together. They look so happy. She won't let me see the dog I bought, and told a friend of mine of that she had moved on, yet when I was with her she never had that level of respect when I was with her. She always checked on her exes on facebook. I blocked her. I know this is all unchristian but she did take me to church, introduce me to Christians if not for her maybe i never would have walked in to a church on my own like I did.
I am having trouble letting go. Its like satan is attacking my mind. I think she won the lottery, she is having a better life than me. This woman has everything more money. But my thing is I have agreat family, including my daughter God bless. and I may not have money but I have a heart. I bought loads of stuff, dining table,m TV, Dog, helped her with bills all the time. I know I said horrible things but she did too. I wish she would be my friend again. I have prayed but now this other woman on the scene. Should I write a letter or let it go and give it to God? I tried giving it to God but take it back and make myself miserable again.
Help please. Christian gays would love some advice.