I came from abuse background and with a deep depression, PSTD , etc....but thanks to God that I m slowly getting healed, and mostly these i feel so good in spirit, although my sleep hours and eating still in disorder, but i have faith it will get better. I have two habits which r hard to get rid of, I need words and supports,
One habit is, I developed the habit of eating good food a few years ago while i was so lonely and desperate, and nobody could talk at that time, I just went to outside restaurant to eat some good food which is offering u to eat as more as u can(u just need to pay a few, then sit there and eat until u r full). and each time I eat too much...........I m thinking why I m this way? maybe because i lacked food while i was a kid, i was forbidden to eat with adults, maybe because later I admire and I feel jealous of those rich people can eat a lot good things?
Another habit is, I used to work in entertainment field. I got a lot deliverance in mental etc already, but the last root there is hard ....I still feel lusted to compare with other pretty women, who is more prettier, who is more attractive, who is better pose style, etc.I know in God eyes every woman every man is perfect being, but I still being influenced so deeply by worldly media views, movies, magazines, worldly art views, etc, so ,"beauty"still becomes a stone in my heart
One habit is, I developed the habit of eating good food a few years ago while i was so lonely and desperate, and nobody could talk at that time, I just went to outside restaurant to eat some good food which is offering u to eat as more as u can(u just need to pay a few, then sit there and eat until u r full). and each time I eat too much...........I m thinking why I m this way? maybe because i lacked food while i was a kid, i was forbidden to eat with adults, maybe because later I admire and I feel jealous of those rich people can eat a lot good things?
Another habit is, I used to work in entertainment field. I got a lot deliverance in mental etc already, but the last root there is hard ....I still feel lusted to compare with other pretty women, who is more prettier, who is more attractive, who is better pose style, etc.I know in God eyes every woman every man is perfect being, but I still being influenced so deeply by worldly media views, movies, magazines, worldly art views, etc, so ,"beauty"still becomes a stone in my heart