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The testimony of the Holy Spirit
I am fatherless
I have been unable to walk since birth, because of cerebral palsy.Sitting on a wheel chair hurts my waist.

I started remembering negative things.
And I used to think about which god to believe in.

I heard and watched more stories about Jesus on the computer.
I have accepted Jesus as my savior.

I was a vegan, eating non-vegetarian is a sin so my vitamins were deficient, I fainted then I was taken to Apollo Hospital then I regained consciousness and mom took me to a psychiatrist.Then I didn't say anything, I was silent.

When I saw the Holy Spirit I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.

Then I started eating non-vegetarian and vegetarian foods.

Why am I depressed? click here
 
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Siddhi,
I was wondering if your depression has gotten better since you last posted about it the link given above? The reason I ask is that was in September and I have been praying for you since then. I am praying mightily the Lord will come in no matter how dark things may seem and pierce that darkness with His ministering light. I feel He has words for you. He desires to speak to you in the depths of your heart. Even now I pray you know His ministering joy and presence being enveloped with His warm embrace.
Please let me know how you are?
 
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I am well but I am afraid of this sinful world and the sin of previous birth. I feel alone.I am afraid of going to hell
and Doctor has given me 2 pills for depression and I want to stop itthen what should i do..
 
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(1) The previous birth? Siddhi are you sure you are not mixing perhaps Hindu influences of reincarnation with Christianity? There is no reincarnation in Christianity. The only new birth we have is our new birth into our new life in Jesus Christ our Lord!! You are not in your present situation because of some sin of a past birth.

(2) Perhaps it would be good for you to think of the positives of your current situation. For example, you have come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ because of your current situation. Think about it, your current situation caused you to seek to find the answers for yourself of who the real God really was. If you had all the things in your life other young people seem to have, everything was going well for you say, everything was perfect in your life, perhaps you wouldn't have felt the need to cry out, to seek out who God really was. And then what would have happened? You would have been left in the dark never coming to know Jesus Christ. Your earthly life may have been good, but your spiritual life would have suffered. No, rather it was your weakness that led you to seek the Lord. So I ask you if you had to do it all over again would you rather have had the perfect earthly life and died one day in spiritual blindness or would you rather have not had the perfect earthly life like you are experiencing, but it leading you as you have to find the truth?

(3) You are right there is much sin and darkness in the world Siddhi. And it may get even darker in time. But here is the thing, sometimes just as in our individual lives, the Lord also has to also take the world through processes and pressures and yes even dark times in order to get to Him. The world will one day be made to see the answer is not in itself. The world since the days of Adam have desired to be like God deciding for themselves what is good and evil, and the hole they have dug only gets deeper and deeper. We just have to be brave soldiers of Christ in the midst of these processes and bear the day and the times the Lord has appointed us to live, pray for others, trust in the Lord's processes and all He decides He needs to bring the world through in order to bring all of creation back to what it was always intended to be. There is nothing we can do but that and desire to be the light of Him in all that we do.

(4) As to depression and pills. I personally don't think your answer is pills Siddhi. I think you answer is acceptance and trust. In everything listed above it comes down in all of these things you are struggling with to two things. Acceptance and Trust. Your circumstances are what they are. The world is what it is. Yours and mine and everyone's spiritual condition is what it is. Who of any of us on our own merits can be saved? So what are you going to do with all of that. The only true way to peace is to put it in His hands, Accept it just the way it is, and Trust Him and the processes He uses to work it out. If you come into that sort of Acceptance and Trust I believe you come into peace. That is your answer if you ask me.

Here is a scripture for you as it relates to all of this. It came in a period in Israel's history when they were troubled and frightened by many things. They could not come to simple rest, acceptance and trust in God. They looked everywhere except Him. But He told them in that day and I believe He tells you the same word.

In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength
(Isaiah 30:15)
 
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Thank you brad d I didn't know. About that, you said there is no reincarnation in Christianity, You are right. but I don't mix Hindu influence.I don't know and I believe in Jesus, that is, I will be born again.
John 3:3-7
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3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?
5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.
7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
 
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I accepted Jesus from 2021. What should I tell my family?But what about my family. Shall I keep calm?My family knows that Siddhi has accepted Jesus
 
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Sometimes I think some things are getting lost in the translation so I have some follow up questions.

I am well but I am afraid of this sinful world and the sin of previous birth. I feel alone.I am afraid of going to hell

(1) If you believe you are reborn in the New birth of Jesus Christ then why do you still fear you are going to hell? And What do you mean when you say I am afraid of the sin of the previous birth?

I accepted Jesus from 2021. What should I tell my family?But what about my family. Shall I keep calm?My family knows that Siddhi has accepted Jesus

(2) Does this mean you haven't told you mom and family you are a Christian? Is that why you feel alone in the World? Do you fear what they may do or say?
 
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Yes, but I don't know why I feel scared and alone. let it go ,I told mom and family that I became a Christianand The Holy Spirit appeared to me.
you fear what they may do or say?
yes
 
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You are very brave in Christ Siddhi. Trust Him. It is understandable you feel scared and alone, you are going through a tremendous transition in your life with very little support or anyone who can understand you. But just know Jesus also knew what it was like to feel alone. On His darkest night all those closest to Him scattered and left Him. The hour is coming, yes has now come, that you will be scattered to his own place, and will leave me alone, And yet I am not alone, because My Father is with Me (John 16:32)

And David said this in the Psalms. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thoughts from afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down. And are acquainted with all my ways.... Where can I then go from your Spirit? ....Even if I should take wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.

So He knows all the details of your situation like no other. He is with you Siddhi to the Ends of the Earth. No matter how alone you feel or afraid know this!
You are not alone! Trust Him!
In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength
(Isaiah 30:15)
 
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