I recently became a Christian. I have been reading the Bible and got the idea stuck in my head that I need to get rid of all my desires and motivations and become a discipline of Christ, helping others find Christ or helping the needy, orphans has been stuck in my head too. Everything that I do in my life, day to day, seems extremely pointless to me and I feel selfish and as a result, guilty, day to day. I don't belong to a church, I have no Christian friends; there are no convents near me; I don't have any formal Bible education; I don't have any kids; I'm not married; but its seriously become an EXTREMELY INTENSE desire to do something useful in my life.
I have a Christian mother. This might be the only thing stopping me from becoming a nun because I don't want her to be alone in her old age, as she only has two younger-than-me sons and I feel like its a daughters duty to take care of her mother in her old age and I would never send her to a "home."
I have a Christian mother. This might be the only thing stopping me from becoming a nun because I don't want her to be alone in her old age, as she only has two younger-than-me sons and I feel like its a daughters duty to take care of her mother in her old age and I would never send her to a "home."