I am really struglling with the tsunami.
I have just turned toward religion in the last year, and read much Bible, but still it doesn't feel real to me. Then the tsunami hit and it threw out all possibility of a God for me. I even got really depressed and now I can't get out of it. I have small children and can't stop images in my mind of what I would do if I lost them like so many of the people have lost their kids. I wanted there to be a God so badly, I don't want to think that their is no Spirit, just a body, and we live and then die and become a terrible corpse and nothing more. Now that the tsunami has dashes the hope for me that there is a God, I am left with nothing but confusion and sorrow and terrified of death, which I know must happen for me and my kids eventually.. I have never been so sick and I'm considering going to the hospital for help, but I have to take care of my kids and my husband works....I am really really disturbed and I need something to believe in more than ever before. How can I believe that these children (and adults and everyone else for that matter) are with Jesus and are okay? How do I know that they didn't suffer for nothing? How do I get the images of death out of my mind? Can anyone understand? I need some peace.
I have just turned toward religion in the last year, and read much Bible, but still it doesn't feel real to me. Then the tsunami hit and it threw out all possibility of a God for me. I even got really depressed and now I can't get out of it. I have small children and can't stop images in my mind of what I would do if I lost them like so many of the people have lost their kids. I wanted there to be a God so badly, I don't want to think that their is no Spirit, just a body, and we live and then die and become a terrible corpse and nothing more. Now that the tsunami has dashes the hope for me that there is a God, I am left with nothing but confusion and sorrow and terrified of death, which I know must happen for me and my kids eventually.. I have never been so sick and I'm considering going to the hospital for help, but I have to take care of my kids and my husband works....I am really really disturbed and I need something to believe in more than ever before. How can I believe that these children (and adults and everyone else for that matter) are with Jesus and are okay? How do I know that they didn't suffer for nothing? How do I get the images of death out of my mind? Can anyone understand? I need some peace.