I feel like I've lost the love of my life

alex1996p said:

Farouk, thank you.

I have been praying everyday and studying as well. I am on John 4 and heading to John 5. I have learned alot on my own and have also been reading a Christian based book called " Everymans Battle" which is about mens struggles with lust and pornography and explicit material in this visual world. Its very eye opening and I know what I need to do now fully. I am able to sleep soundly at night and the anxiety isnt as bad....but I have it from time to time. I still cry alot and break down. I think my friends are getting sick of me talking about it. Im not sure. Im hanging in there. The church services and bible studies are nice, but alot of times I learn by conversing with a Scotty who is giving me insight as I update my progress. Im kind of in a rut this week, but I've got 3 weeks left over here before Im back.

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alex1996p said:

Farouk, thank you.

I have been praying everyday and studying as well. I am on John 4 and heading to John 5. I have learned alot on my own and have also been reading a Christian based book called " Everymans Battle" which is about mens struggles with lust and pornography and explicit material in this visual world. Its very eye opening and I know what I need to do now fully. I am able to sleep soundly at night and the anxiety isnt as bad....but I have it from time to time. I still cry alot and break down. I think my friends are getting sick of me talking about it. Im not sure. Im hanging in there. The church services and bible studies are nice, but alot of times I learn by conversing with a Scotty who is giving me insight as I update my progress. Im kind of in a rut this week, but I've got 3 weeks left over here before Im back.

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alex1996p said:

Farouk, thank you.

I have been praying everyday and studying as well. I am on John 4 and heading to John 5. I have learned alot on my own and have also been reading a Christian based book called " Everymans Battle" which is about mens struggles with lust and pornography and explicit material in this visual world. Its very eye opening and I know what I need to do now fully. I am able to sleep soundly at night and the anxiety isnt as bad....but I have it from time to time. I still cry alot and break down. I think my friends are getting sick of me talking about it. Im not sure. Im hanging in there. The church services and bible studies are nice, but alot of times I learn by conversing with a Scotty who is giving me insight as I update my progress. Im kind of in a rut this week, but I've got 3 weeks left over here before Im back.

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alex1996p said:

Farouk, yea they are. My anxiety has been getting the best of me and I havent been looking at scripture consistently. I need to get back on it.

Quite frankly.... I am afraid. Im afraid to even go home. Im afraid shes gonna act like I never even existed. It scares me. I am so afraid. What if shes not even there at the welcome home ceremony. Im just afraid of everything.

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