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How did you know that your husband/wife was the one you wanted to marry? Were you nervous, scared, excited, a combo of all those when you realized that you were in love with them and wanted to spend your life with them?

Also, did you ever feel shy or awkward around them or were you always comfortable with them as if you had known each other forever?
 

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It's funny. I'd had the butterflies in my stomach feelings with other girls I'd had crushes on before I met my wife, and uneasiness talking, especially when I was a teen.

But I never had that with my wife. I loved her, but it wasn't that want to throw up kind of infatuation. I consider to be something more mature that I experienced, maybe.

The movies make falling in love to be a major cultural ideal. Disney films and 'chick flicks' aimed at adults promote the idea. They talk about how love makes you feel and our culture celebrates it with the arts, with music, film, etc.

When I was a child, I remember hearing a preacher say from the pulpit, you meet someone, you fall in love, and you get married. I didn't realize a lot of my ideas about love were cultural concepts that had evolved over time. I'd seen Romeo and Juliet and lots of movies and TV shows and I'd heard people talk.

I appreciate romantic love and enjoy it, but we need to know that we stay committed if it goes away. If one thinks this type of love involves butterflies and nausea or a dopamine rush is 'love', and breaks up when love is gone, then that's a dangerous thing to marry with that attitude. There is a more mature romantic' love that can be cultivated and maintained over time.
 
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After the first conversation with my wife, I wondered if she was the answer to my prayer for God to send me a wife. I'd been praying rather intensely, and it seemed like the Lord was saying I'd meet her that month. My wife went home and wrote a prayer in her prayer journal, "Lord if it's your will, give me to him and him to me."

So we had this sort of connection between us when we had that first conversation. Later, we realized we'd met a year earlier. I was working at a Christian school in Indonesia teaching a supplemental English class to every grade level from pre-K up to 10th grade. It was preschool and kindergarten day. I left some materials in the four-year-old classroom and went back for them. The teacher introduced me to an assistant who had been in the back of the room. We shook hands and I left fast. I didn't realize it was her, but I went in the office to work. I looked down the long line of tables lined together and saw this beautiful young woman with a sticker from her church on her briefcase. I wondered if the Lord would give me a woman that pretty some day to be my wife.

She was dating someone at the time, so when she saw me, she thought I wasn't all that good-looking for a white guy. She said she probably told herself that because she was dating another guy.

We forgot about each other. Then I visited her college campus. A missionary worked there was a professor and lived on campus. He'd invited me to dinner over Christmas break and suggested I visit the library. It was near where I lived, but off a little road hidden from view. So I road the little bus up there, just a few minutes away, to meet some other young people in their 20's like myself and to read the English books in the library like the missionary suggested.

My wife walked into the cafeteria area where I was hanging out with some students I'd just met. She had been down about something and her friend had cheered her up. She found out that the guy she'd been dating when she first met me had these other girlfriends, and she was really down about it. Her friend had told her this list of good things about herself, told her to look in the mirror and how pretty she was, and how the Lord could bring he a husband from somewhere else in the world, like China, or America, etc.

So she walks to campus. When she saw me, she said, "Hi, sir." She told me later she wasn't trying to flirt. She was just in a good mood and was saying, "Hi." I looked her going up the stairs to the library. Her friend whispered to her about me being cute, so she looked back at me and our eyes met.

Later, she goes downstairs and I'm with her friend Philemon, whose playing the guitar. She believes the Lord wants her to talk to me. But she tells the Lord that she's a shy Asian girl and doesn't want to approach a man she doesn't know like that. So she sits by Philemon and asks him if he knows how to play a praise and worship song. Then I struck up a conversation with her and introduced myself.

She got a word of knowledge for me. It fit with what I knew about my own spiritual gifts, which was good. We started talking about me going to her cell group. So I give her my phone number, but forget to get hers. Somehow I'd spilled a bottle of water in my backpack I had with me. She put it in the sun for me. I didn't get her number.

A couple of days later, I asked Yoel if he knew her. He mentioned to her that I'd mentioned her to him. She was wanting to call, for someone else to answer, and to leave my number. There was an office in the house I lived, and the already-engaged young man who answered the phone may have tried to chat her up and purposefully not passed on the number. I don't know. She called again and left a number and they put the message on my door.

We were both busy with church trips and/or ministry, and so we couldn't meet. We started talking on the phone and finally I got to start meeting her. In those days talking on the phone, I suggested we be just friends, which she didn't like and considered to be a bit presumptuous of me. She didn't like it because she didn't want to be just friends. And she considered it presumptuous because I would think that she might want something other than being just friends. But we both were trying to see if the other person was also suspecting we might have met our marriage partner.

My Indonesian wasn't so good and neither was her English. So it took us a long time for each of us to figure out we liked the other. She kept calling me 'brother.' I thought she was reminding me we were friends and not something more. I didn't know girlfriends called their boyfriends brother. I was older. She had to call me 'older brother' in her language. I got to the point where I felt like I was lying by introducing her as my 'friend' though I took her out for dinner every night and I liked her, and it seemed pretty clear to me that she liked me. So I asked her if she thought of me as just a friend, and she was afraid that I'd want to stop spending time with her, so it was hard to get her to have that conversation.

Then later, she says she wrote something in her journal about us when we met. I ask to see it, and she said, "It hangs up on our relationship." I thought, "Oh no, there is a hang up in our relationship." Then she got a dictionary. Hang is the same word as depend in Indonesian. She meant it depends on our relationship. She told me after she accepted my proposal of marriage.
 
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So I'm praying about whether to marry her. It's just such a big decision. Someone had told me the Lord didn't want me dating anyone until I met my wife, and the next person I dated was my wife, but it sure made the decision making process more difficult.

So I was praying about whether to marry her, and it seemed like the Lord was saying Yes to my question of whether this was my wife. But I kept praying that and it felt like the Lord was saying, "Yes, why don't you believe Me?" Ouch. That was appropriate for me. She even got upset while we were talking once, so I prayed about it, and it seemed like the Lord had given me this background story of why she cried. So the next time we talk on the phone, she tells me this same story I got in prayer. So I guess I should have taken that as evidence that I was hearing. But I would have appreciated some 'confirmation' that this was all from the Lord. I would have liked a prophecy, for example, since I believe in those gifts.

I was living with this expats house who was living there and sort of house sitting for his wife's relative until he moved away. He told me if he made a decision, he told God, "If you don't want me to do it, stop me." I thought that was lousy advice, until he explained it. He prayed for direction. He read the Bible for direction. He might get some godly counsel. If he didn't get anything conclusion, he'd trust God to give him wisdom to make the decision, tell God the decision, and then say, "If you don't want me to do it, stop me." That was a lot more spiritual. I got similar advice from a missionary.

And of course, I love my future-wife so much I think what if I'm not a good enough guy for her, lead her in the wrong way or she doesn't fulfill her calling because of me or something like that. Then the friend with the 'stop me' advice told me, "I know what you are thinking. You don't think you are good enough for her." It's funny how you shift from looking for the best wife to yourself to wanting her to have a good enough husband.

So then she goes away on a missions trip while I pray it through. She's coming back in a day or two, and I tell the Lord all my reasons to want to marry her. Before the prayer, I was like 95% sure. But that 5% was just awful. She was what I wanted, a beautiful virgin Christian woman who loved Jesus, a really sweet girl who was attracted to me and loved me like crazy, too. I prayed about all the reasons why I believed this was God's will, and then I told the Lord, if He didn't want me to marry me, to let me know or stop me, because I was going to go buy a ring.

After that, I was 100% sure. The next day, I pick my wife up at the train station after he boat ride back from Borneo. We go to this young adults service at night. There is this American evangelist there. He calls us up after the sermon and prophesies about us going to many places, ministering to many people. It sure sounded like we'd be together for a long time, and much of it has been fulfilled. After it was over, I talked with him one on one and said I'd just decided to buy a ring. He told me he thought it was about time. I asked him if he was nervous giving prophecies like that. He said he used to be but wasn't anymore.

I asked an older guy from church to go ring shopping with me Monday. I told my future wife I wasn't going to take her to dinner because I was going to meet with him. Then it was my birthday. There, you talk people out for your own birthday and treat. I took her to a nice place I'd spotted as an Oasis of green in Jakarta's dismal grey concrete landscape, a garden outside a restaurant in the Le Meridian complex. So I wore a suit for my birthday and had asked her to dress up nice. Before she had seconds or thirds at the buffet, that ring was burning a hole in my pocket, so we went outside.

It had just rained on the tile. I knelt down on one knee and washed her feet in the water. She said 'What are you doing?' I said in my best Indonesian, "What I do thou knowest not now; but thou shalt know hereafter." This was spontaneous. If I'd have known, I'd have looked it up in John 13 in Indonesian. Then I proposed marriage.

She kept saying, "It's wonderful" about what I'd done, over and over again while crying and getting all emotional. I kept asking if she'd marry me. Finally she said yes.

Then I realized that to propose there, you go meet the parents. So that was three days on an overcrowded ship with people crammed in there like sardines. We got a bed. Some people slept under the stairwell with their chickens in bamboo cages. I thought I'd be doing pretty good with my Indonesian language skills, but her parents spoke Batak nearly the whole time I was up there.

But we got married and it worked out. We are still together. My wife sure has been a blessing to me.
 
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We clicked instantly. We had tons in common, everything from our faith to our personalities to our hobbies and interests. There was very little nervousness in the beginning, but TONS of excitement, and the nerves vanished quickly. We admired each others' intellects, we finished each others' sentences, we found ourselves agreeing on so many things, it was almost unreal.

I've never felt shy or awkward around my husband. The first meeting was a little nerve-wracking, but within maybe an hour or two, it was like we'd always known each other. We sat down and had breakfast and were just talking like old friends in no time. It's almost ridiculous how comfortable we are with each other. I have no hesitation about being unkempt and frumpled and wearing ugly, mismatched sweats around him... which is amazing! Same for him, he wears these ugly, over-sized tshirts and walks around in his boxers, and I don't care at all, that's my baby lol.
 
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I started dating my husband when we were teenagers and we've been married for 24 years now (dated for 6). I felt VERY shy and awkward around him for years. There were some connections here and there but I'm not sure of the exact moment that I knew we were supposed to be married to each other, and maybe it was because I hadn't dated a lot of guys before and wanted to maintain a reasonable head on my shoulders?
 
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Like some others I just knew. It wasn't like the other feelings I had with other woman. Its some deep down emotional thing that I believe God lets you feel so you realize the person your thinking of is not like everyone else you may have dated.

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I married husband number one for the "in-love" feelings and it failed after 6 years. My current husband and I were good friends, and when he expressed interest in a committed relationship I made sure to not allow my feelings to master my decision-making process. I made sure that we thoroughly discussed the things I knew would be imperative to a lifelong commitment before I actually agreed to be in one. It was only after I was satisfied that he would be just as committed to the principles for making marriage work as I was, that I agreed to marry him. It does not sound very romantic, but believe me, there is plenty of romance when he rescues me from gigantic spiders or when he goes the extra mile at home when I am unable to do as much as I normally do...those are the kinds of things that override even romance - knowing you can count on your spouse when things get a little imbalanced in life.
 
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There was an immediate attraction on my part but the congregation I finally decided to go to in college disallowed any kind of dating (or even male - female friendships) So when she joined that congregation as well after she graduated high school, we kind of went our seperate ways but would occasionally talk, etc. When it hit me that she was the one I wanted, I had to go to the leaders to arrange a "courtship." They refused. So I kept at them for about 6 or 7 months (with us meeting on the side). When they finally relented and agreed to the courtship, I was convinced and I proposed on our first official date. (so I can honestly say that our "official courtship" lasted only about 45 minutes)
 
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