I was praying to Gods because i was anxious. the anxiety was caused by my ocd.
I wanted to say to Gods that with or without my will, never punish me. But I made a mistake because I was on a hurry and said something like with or without my will, punish me.
I said that accidentally. I wanted to say NEVER punish me. i said that it was a mistake but i am not sure if Gods listen to me because right now I am
"i do not want punishment"
and the wrong prayer was
wrong prayer: even with or without my will punish me.
This can be also translated like "even if i do not want to, punish me"
I was trying to be sure that i will never end up in a deal/punishment/promise/ocd worry and since, i cant confirm which thoughts and prayers are made with my will or not, I decided to say that to Gods so I would no longer worry for punishments, even if they were asked with my will. so, i was ready to say
"with or without my will, NEVER punish me"
and i said, accidentally
"with or without my will, punish me"
if Gods accepted that accidental prayer as valid. Now, as long as I scream "Please do not punish me" the Gods, perhaps, will not hear me because of my accidental prayer.
I wanted to say to Gods that with or without my will, never punish me. But I made a mistake because I was on a hurry and said something like with or without my will, punish me.
I said that accidentally. I wanted to say NEVER punish me. i said that it was a mistake but i am not sure if Gods listen to me because right now I am
"i do not want punishment"
and the wrong prayer was
wrong prayer: even with or without my will punish me.
This can be also translated like "even if i do not want to, punish me"
I was trying to be sure that i will never end up in a deal/punishment/promise/ocd worry and since, i cant confirm which thoughts and prayers are made with my will or not, I decided to say that to Gods so I would no longer worry for punishments, even if they were asked with my will. so, i was ready to say
"with or without my will, NEVER punish me"
and i said, accidentally
"with or without my will, punish me"
if Gods accepted that accidental prayer as valid. Now, as long as I scream "Please do not punish me" the Gods, perhaps, will not hear me because of my accidental prayer.