After my friend Brad died in a car accident, his girlfriend Lauren (one of my best friends) committed suicide, and since then, I have felt extremely confused and depressed. Unfortunately, I found myself trying to run from God so I might bury myself in my grief and hopelessness. I became unsure about my faith and at times even doubted if God even existed. BUT HE DIDN'T LET ME GO!! He will NEVER let you go! If you think that your life is horrible and that there's no hope and it will never get better......I CAN PROMISE YOU IT WILL!!! God is ALWAYS with you! Whether you want Him to be or not! If you are His child and He wants you, then He will not let you go! And if you accept Him as your Lord and Savior then you have an eternity in Heaven to look forward to! I am still unsure of if committing suicide has kept my friend out of Heaven, but I am at peace because I know that God's will has been done in her life. And through small situations in my life, God has showed me that He will be with me always and I have nothing to fear!