Maybe these lyrics from the song "The Wall" from Kansas will fit your feelings. It has done mine, many times. If you get a chance to listen to the song, please do. Kerry Livgren wrote the lyrics, he still writes Christian rock music.
The Wall
(Kerry Livgren/Steve Walsh)
I'm woven in a fantasy, I can't believe the things I see
The path that I have chosen now has led me to a wall
And with each passing day I feel a little more like something dear was lost
It rises now before me, a dark and silent barrier between
All I am and all that I would ever want to be
It's just a travesty, towering, marking off the boundaries my spirit would
erase
To pass beyond is what I seek, I fear that I may be too weak
And those are few who've seen it through to glimpse the other side
The promised land is waiting like a maiden that is soon to be a bride
The moment is a masterpiece, the weight of indecisions in the air
It's standing there, the symbol and the sum of all that's me
It's just a travesty, towering, blocking out the light and blinding me
I want to see
Gold and diamonds cast a spell, it's not for me to know it well
The treasures that I seek are waiting on the other side
THere's more that I can measure in the treasure of the love that I can find
And though it's always been with me
I must teard down the wall let it be
All I am, and all that I was ever meant to be, in harmony
Shining true and smiling back at all who wait to cross
There is no loss
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With God's Grace, I have finally passed to the other side of The Wall. I am holding my hand out to help you cross over too.
The Wall
(Kerry Livgren/Steve Walsh)
I'm woven in a fantasy, I can't believe the things I see
The path that I have chosen now has led me to a wall
And with each passing day I feel a little more like something dear was lost
It rises now before me, a dark and silent barrier between
All I am and all that I would ever want to be
It's just a travesty, towering, marking off the boundaries my spirit would
erase
To pass beyond is what I seek, I fear that I may be too weak
And those are few who've seen it through to glimpse the other side
The promised land is waiting like a maiden that is soon to be a bride
The moment is a masterpiece, the weight of indecisions in the air
It's standing there, the symbol and the sum of all that's me
It's just a travesty, towering, blocking out the light and blinding me
I want to see
Gold and diamonds cast a spell, it's not for me to know it well
The treasures that I seek are waiting on the other side
THere's more that I can measure in the treasure of the love that I can find
And though it's always been with me
I must teard down the wall let it be
All I am, and all that I was ever meant to be, in harmony
Shining true and smiling back at all who wait to cross
There is no loss
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With God's Grace, I have finally passed to the other side of The Wall. I am holding my hand out to help you cross over too.