feeling low

Heather, I am so sorry you are hurting. It sounds like you have so much stress right now. I'm glad you haven't cut in years. I hope you can get through tonight without doing it again. Sometimes in the past I have literally taken it ten minutes at a time. Usually something will distract me or help ease my mind a bit. Praying and reading the Bible helps me a lot. Sometimes taking a walk helps and get me through the urges.

May God comfort you right now and bring peace to your home this evening. God bless you.

Sweet Heather,
I'm sorry you are in that place right now. I know it may seem like cutting is the only way out...but it's not. Sounds like you are in a tough spot w/ relationships. That is a real trigger for me too.

He is a short list of things you might be able to do to get you through the moment:

Call or write a friend or relative
Write out your feelings in a journal. Be honest about what is upsetting you and how you feel about it.
Write poetry if you do that.
Pray
LIsten to music (worship music if you have it)
Go out to eat or for coffee w/ a friend
Rent a movie, not a depressing one
Read a book

Remember 1 Corinthians 10:13
"No temptation has seized you except that which is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted he will also provide a way out so that you may stand up under it."

heatherwayno said:

I am really depressed right now and feel like cutting myslef. I havent done that for years. I see no way to end this turmoil that I am in. I am in an argument with my Mom and my hubby doesn't want to invite her ot my sons 2nd bday. I just want to forgive. He is ruining the bday for me and I have told him time and time again how upset I am and he wont budge on this. I have lost my depression meds and don't feel like looking for htem. I feel very comfortable being sad- like it is safe becuase I am already hurt and cant be again.

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Dear Heather:

Family disputes can be very emotional, especially when it comes to a parent. My mom and I have had our ups and downs, but time and God, mends wounds and broken hearts. Mom and I are now the best of friends. Of course, I am older than you. When I was your age, Mom and I had our power struggles.

Understand that you, alone, can't fix certain things and you can't fix other people. The only thing that you can change is yourself. You can change how you relate to others and how you respond to conflicts. You can change how you think (optimism vs. pesamism), you can change your mind-set, and you can change how you feel. By the grace of God, we can change ourselves. Your Mom is an adult and will survive any coflict. Your husband is an adult and will survive any conflict. Know that overtime, by God's grace, things change and mend over time.

Put your trust in God with these conflicts. Surrender the issues to Him for they are things that you can't change on your own. God does amazing things in time. It is up to us to wait for Him and be patient. Everything is according to his timing. We may desire resolve today, but God may will it tomorrow. That's why we surrender hurt, conflict, issues, and pain to Him. He has ultimate control and he won't relinquish it.

This thing with your Mom will pass as has old issues from years before. Don't worry over things that are beyond your control. That just keeps you in turmoil.

Surrender and feel God's peace in your heart. Hang in there. God works things out in his timing. Trust in him and feel His peace.

We are all here for you. You are always welcome to come and vent and get your feeling out. There is only TLC and love here.

Your sister in Christ,
Kim