Depressed rant

Tigger45 said:

Hey brother are you seeking any professional help for your condition? At least reach out to your pastor and therapy would be good too. Don’t think you should wait just start making plans for an initial consultation.

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yuppers said:

Hello, I’ve been feeling depressed for a while and just need to get some advice. I’m 27M. I was depressed and felt suicidal at 18. There was a time after that where life was starting to feel like things were coming together. I have lots of social anxiety so I’ve never felt normal in society. I got a job at 20 and have been working there since then. These past few years things have really fallen apart. I got a injury at work that never healed properly, covid came around and I live alone so I got lonely, now my work has been slowly deteriorating. These past few years have been rough. I started drinking on a regular basis and smoking pot to help ease my mental health struggles. I feel like I just exist on this planet. I’ve been pretty depressed and have struggles with the desire to end things. I’m looking forward to the day I pass away. Sadly I can’t make the final decision myself because it would be to difficult for my family to deal with. I try to keep it together. My work is such a mental burden on me. I can’t just quit because of bills to pay. I see lots of people losing their jobs so in a messed up way I should be thankful for my work.. Tomorrow my sister is setting me up on a date. I should be feeling happy. In my low 20s I was expecting to go on dates. I have so many struggles now that I’m really scared to even consider bringing someone else into my mess. I’m stressed on how I’m supposed to navigate acting happy to attract a mate. I’m really not happy in life. Its so much to deal with... I got baptized so I believe God has some kind of plan for peoples lives. I really don’t see him in my life much anymore.
Sorry this was a lot of information. I don’t talk to anyone about my struggles. I keep it bottled up inside. If you have read this I appreciate the time you took. Thanks

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