it seems like my prayers are falling
on deaf ears
The Bible says ask for anything
I'm questioning if you where really sincere ...
A agnostics way of thinking, no God, just something lurking out there in the atmosphere
Agnostic ... Maybe they got it right; just a energy a source
No God with able ears...
a empty shout,
a shot in the dark ,
no hope
A soul filled with emptiness and spite.
Lord can't you hear me ? Can't you see me ?
I need you near.
Have you forsaken me ? It's my greatest fear.
I'm a walking contradiction,
a hypocritical creation,
I'm a double standard
Sometimes I claim Faith sometimes I feel like it's a all hallucination...
How can somebody that loves you doubt you? How can somebody who calls for you be afraid of you? how can I need you yet be so mad at you ... Lord I need you where are you.
You've stripped me from all my wants needs and desires,
You've made me see how you are allll that I require ...
I'm gratefull
I'm pleased from these works you continue doing in me, but every night I feel so lonely ? Why wont you heal me from this hopelessness
what's the lesson in this heartbrokenness ?
I'm not blame not blaming you Lord, I'm not blameless like your servant Job
I'm SOO sorry I wish I could go back in time and avoid all of this.
You spoke to me back then,
I ignored you I didn't listen
Lord I'm sad alone and hopeless please relieve me of this torment.
Please relieve me from the sadness, a weight on a shoulder that just can't hold it,
Lord...
Please make me whole again,
You died on the cross and rose again
Elohim Adonai Yahweh
Please be my Joy Again.
Forever in sleep I wish to be.
No woken consciousness of the void deep inside of me.
Asleep where there is no hurt no pain no sorrow
At peace...
no need to chase for hope no angst .... No constant remainder.
Deep sleep where your heart and mind meet,
Desires, goals, aspirations, expectations
The gladiators of your dreams...
getting ready to come into colosseum called reality
Reality;
a arena that leave these warriors with scars way past the white meat. But in sleep we dream these warriors live on for eternity.
One bullet in the heart,
Prayer didn't work like I hope It did ...
I hope I still get picked up in the resurection. It's been 6 years I've battled with this depression.
Maybe when we meet I'll get to ask you this question.
on deaf ears
The Bible says ask for anything
I'm questioning if you where really sincere ...
A agnostics way of thinking, no God, just something lurking out there in the atmosphere
Agnostic ... Maybe they got it right; just a energy a source
No God with able ears...
a empty shout,
a shot in the dark ,
no hope
A soul filled with emptiness and spite.
Lord can't you hear me ? Can't you see me ?
I need you near.
Have you forsaken me ? It's my greatest fear.
I'm a walking contradiction,
a hypocritical creation,
I'm a double standard
Sometimes I claim Faith sometimes I feel like it's a all hallucination...
How can somebody that loves you doubt you? How can somebody who calls for you be afraid of you? how can I need you yet be so mad at you ... Lord I need you where are you.
You've stripped me from all my wants needs and desires,
You've made me see how you are allll that I require ...
I'm gratefull
I'm pleased from these works you continue doing in me, but every night I feel so lonely ? Why wont you heal me from this hopelessness
what's the lesson in this heartbrokenness ?
I'm not blame not blaming you Lord, I'm not blameless like your servant Job
I'm SOO sorry I wish I could go back in time and avoid all of this.
You spoke to me back then,
I ignored you I didn't listen
Lord I'm sad alone and hopeless please relieve me of this torment.
Please relieve me from the sadness, a weight on a shoulder that just can't hold it,
Lord...
Please make me whole again,
You died on the cross and rose again
Elohim Adonai Yahweh
Please be my Joy Again.
Forever in sleep I wish to be.
No woken consciousness of the void deep inside of me.
Asleep where there is no hurt no pain no sorrow
At peace...
no need to chase for hope no angst .... No constant remainder.
Deep sleep where your heart and mind meet,
Desires, goals, aspirations, expectations
The gladiators of your dreams...
getting ready to come into colosseum called reality
Reality;
a arena that leave these warriors with scars way past the white meat. But in sleep we dream these warriors live on for eternity.
One bullet in the heart,
Prayer didn't work like I hope It did ...
I hope I still get picked up in the resurection. It's been 6 years I've battled with this depression.
Maybe when we meet I'll get to ask you this question.