God is shaking up the religious world and is calling His Sheep out of this wicked, unscriptural "church" scene. Don't let church folks guilt trip you any further to keep you in this bondage. Find some believers who love the Truth, read the letters to the assemblies, and do what is written there. You are under no obligation to go to religious clubs that are dominated by sick, unspiritual "pastors" who will not even do the Word themselves. As already suggested, read in Acts and in the letters how the assemblies are supposed to be organized and what they are to do. You'll find that todays "churches" are not on the foundation of the apostles and prophets at all. If fact, avoid any group of people in which only ONE person does the speaking. 1 Corinthians 14:29. That's dangerous, unscriptural and cultish. It is very difficult to get out from under the brainwashing of "church" organizations. There are particular spirits in charge of that very thing. They have slowly but very effectively down through the years transformed the "church" into a dead man-made organization with a class system called "clergy" and "laity." That is an abomination to God. Get out of it quickly while the Lord is providing an opportunity for you. I pray for the Lord to give you discernment in HIS Spirit.