Can the cipher decipher himself?

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

Where do I start? Where do I begin? In my deepest self I delight in truth but stand in amazement where it lies. As in heads or tails but three sides to every coin i have learned that as with all polarity the truth is found inside the illusion of duality! Truth is that which cannot be contradicted by man. Because in truth there really is no contradiction. How I found this truth and what I went through to get to it is what id like to share with you all.
Job says true wisdom has two sides and solomon says it is good to grasp the one and not let go of the other. What i have learned in the last 17 years of my life through long suffering is that the word of God has two sides to it which must be rightly divided until no contradiction remains. Deuteronomy 30:14-15 puts it this way, the word is very near you, it is in your mouth and in your heart so you will do it. See i have set before you this day life and good death and evil. There is an apparent war between these two opposing forces all thoughout the Bible and the temptation is to choose one side over the other to which the result is always the same division within ourselves, our families, our churches and the world. Its only when you embace the light and the dark within you and make the two one that you will see the truth for what it is. Isaiah 45:7 says i form the light and create darkness i make peace and create evil i the LORD do all these things. So you see its one coin (our God is one the father) with two opposing sides (heads and tails the son) and the edge or 3rd dimension that makes it all possible (the spirit aspect of the trinity).
There is so much more to share about what i have discovered about the truth but will now tell you my story that led to it.
First you need to know i will be 44 years old tomorrow. I was 27 in 1999 when my life changed forever and i begain a great journy to understand the truth. I grew up in a very strong Bible believing family that took evry word of the Bible literally and stood firm that there was not one contradiction in that book. I too believed that and spent a lot of energy defending it up until that year when i began to date a none Christian named Sarah.
I remember our first date vividly. We were at a restaraunt when she discovered through our conversation that i was a christian and asked me point blank so if i died today being the non christian that i am would i go to hell. I told her in my heart of hearts i didnt believe that but that is what christianity teaches. To which she said then why are you a Christian? I was caught completly off guard and could not answer her. She continued is that kind of hypocracy. Then she stated why do you believe in the Bible any ways when it is loaded with contradictions. Now i felt defensive and threatened and arrogantly said oh yeah name one! She said she could do better than that and later showed me a website of hundreds of them side by side.
I was enraged and kid you not went to make war with those who hold to the testimony of Jesus Christ who i felt had lied to me my whole life. I had given everything to the church only to find the more i dug for the truth the more the deception in Christianty became to me.
All this torn me in half on the inside as my spiritual house came crashing down and i felt the death of my heart. I was very quickly manic and diagnosed with bipolar disorder. My heart turned to stone and i vowed never to let God in again. I hated God for all the confusion and contradictions in the Bible. When job repented in dust and ashes i cursed God to his faced and vowed to destroy him. I hated the teaching that says the streets of heaven are paved with the souls of hell and that many go to that destruction but only a few find the narrow gate. Without go though more detail i hated christianty, christians, the bible, etc. I was filled with wrath and now was cursed with a metal disorder. I swore to not only find the truth and expose the lie but reveal it to the entire world with all my creativity.
But something really weird happened one morning during all this. I was dreaming that a man in black was trying to kill me. He was running at me filled with fury and then i awoke to my phone ringing. It was my older sister Joy. She was out of breath and frantically asked if i was ok. I said yes why. She said because i had a horrible nightmare that someone was trying to kill you.
Later that day i was taking to the hospital and diagonosed with bipolar disorder. And at sunset that night the most bizarre thing happened. Thousands of blackbirds surrounded the hospital on all sides and i and my family could see them. I have to say by then i stated to feel like i was the long awaited antichrist as so much was being revealed to me at that time with such fury.
I would spend the next 17 years running away from that monster that lied within me. I dont what else to say about that other than i can tell you i am not affraid anymore. For perfect love drives out fear. And as far as the truth is concerned i no longer seek it. Why? Because i know it.
What have i learned from this? To continually seek something is to doubt possessing it. We all carry the truth in us its just hard to recognize for the first time.
I have so much more i could tell you all but have to go. Great things are around the bend for all of us. I promise!!!

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joshcorn · Oct 28, 2017

theoneinsidethezero said:
Where do I start? Where do I begin? In my deepest self I delight in truth but stand in amazement where it lies. As in heads or tails but three sides to every coin i have learned that as with all polarity the truth is found inside the illusion of duality! Truth is that which cannot be contradicted by man. Because in truth there really is no contradiction. How I found this truth and what I went through to get to it is what id like to share with you all.
Job says true wisdom has two sides and solomon says it is good to grasp the one and not let go of the other. What i have learned in the last 17 years of my life through long suffering is that the word of God has two sides to it which must be rightly divided until no contradiction remains. Deuteronomy 30:14-15 puts it this way, the word is very near you, it is in your mouth and in your heart so you will do it. See i have set before you this day life and good death and evil. There is an apparent war between these two opposing forces all thoughout the Bible and the temptation is to choose one side over the other to which the result is always the same division within ourselves, our families, our churches and the world. Its only when you embace the light and the dark within you and make the two one that you will see the truth for what it is. Isaiah 45:7 says i form the light and create darkness i make peace and create evil i the LORD do all these things. So you see its one coin (our God is one the father) with two opposing sides (heads and tails the son) and the edge or 3rd dimension that makes it all possible (the spirit aspect of the trinity).
There is so much more to share about what i have discovered about the truth but will now tell you my story that led to it.
First you need to know i will be 44 years old tomorrow. I was 27 in 1999 when my life changed forever and i begain a great journy to understand the truth. I grew up in a very strong Bible believing family that took evry word of the Bible literally and stood firm that there was not one contradiction in that book. I too believed that and spent a lot of energy defending it up until that year when i began to date a none Christian named Sarah.
I remember our first date vividly. We were at a restaraunt when she discovered through our conversation that i was a christian and asked me point blank so if i died today being the non christian that i am would i go to hell. I told her in my heart of hearts i didnt believe that but that is what christianity teaches. To which she said then why are you a Christian? I was caught completly off guard and could not answer her. She continued is that kind of hypocracy. Then she stated why do you believe in the Bible any ways when it is loaded with contradictions. Now i felt defensive and threatened and arrogantly said oh yeah name one! She said she could do better than that and later showed me a website of hundreds of them side by side.
I was enraged and kid you not went to make war with those who hold to the testimony of Jesus Christ who i felt had lied to me my whole life. I had given everything to the church only to find the more i dug for the truth the more the deception in Christianty became to me.
All this torn me in half on the inside as my spiritual house came crashing down and i felt the death of my heart. I was very quickly manic and diagnosed with bipolar disorder. My heart turned to stone and i vowed never to let God in again. I hated God for all the confusion and contradictions in the Bible. When job repented in dust and ashes i cursed God to his faced and vowed to destroy him. I hated the teaching that says the streets of heaven are paved with the souls of hell and that many go to that destruction but only a few find the narrow gate. Without go though more detail i hated christianty, christians, the bible, etc. I was filled with wrath and now was cursed with a metal disorder. I swore to not only find the truth and expose the lie but reveal it to the entire world with all my creativity.
But something really weird happened one morning during all this. I was dreaming that a man in black was trying to kill me. He was running at me filled with fury and then i awoke to my phone ringing. It was my older sister Joy. She was out of breath and frantically asked if i was ok. I said yes why. She said because i had a horrible nightmare that someone was trying to kill you.
Later that day i was taking to the hospital and diagonosed with bipolar disorder. And at sunset that night the most bizarre thing happened. Thousands of blackbirds surrounded the hospital on all sides and i and my family could see them. I have to say by then i stated to feel like i was the long awaited antichrist as so much was being revealed to me at that time with such fury.
I would spend the next 17 years running away from that monster that lied within me. I dont what else to say about that other than i can tell you i am not affraid anymore. For perfect love drives out fear. And as far as the truth is concerned i no longer seek it. Why? Because i know it.
What have i learned from this? To continually seek something is to doubt possessing it. We all carry the truth in us its just hard to recognize for the first time.
I have so much more i could tell you all but have to go. Great things are around the bend for all of us. I promise!!!

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You have written alot there.There is only one way to seek truth .Your heart connection with Father,SON and Holy Spirit.Any other way will lead to you opening yourself up to another spirit {demonic}.I can see by what you wrote that you have already done this.Even the blackbirbs played a part in this.The inportent thing now is to build a relationship with Father,Son and Holy Spirit. IF i can be of any futher help let me know.

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

joshcorn said:
You have written alot there.There is only one way to seek truth .Your heart connection with Father,SON and Holy Spirit.Any other way will lead to you opening yourself up to another spirit {demonic}.I can see by what you wrote that you have already done this.Even the blackbirbs played a part in this.The inportent thing now is to build a relationship with Father,Son and Holy Spirit. IF i can be of any futher help let me know.

Where were you 17 years ago my friend! lol Unfortunately, I can tell you I learned that lesson the hard way and about the only fruit of the spirit I have known well for the last 17 years is long suffering. But I will have you know last weekend I had the most amazing experience. I threw out 17 years of journaling in which I was trying to 'find' the truth. Why? Because I finally realized that no matter how hard I pushed I was never going to open the book in Revelation that no one was found worthy to open with the approach I had been taking. I finally just told God I give up and repented and let go of so much darkness, frustration and anger that had built up inside of me for many years. I truly did a 180 and turned to face God once again as the man I had become and told him that I had nothing for him. I was no one in the middle of nowhere and didn't know my head from my you know what. And at that moment I was reminded of God running to the prodical son. What a gift forgiveness is. What a gift.

I have learned so much through all this that I am eager to share with the world some of which I have already disclosed in some of my other posts. So, though my story may be hard to stomach or even believe it has made me the man I am today and for that I am very grateful.

Thanks for your reply. Indeed I have gone about this whole thing wrong...but hey, God's power is made perfect in weakness. So therefore I will boost of my weaknesses all the more!!!

joshcorn · Oct 28, 2017

theoneinsidethezero said:
Where were you 17 years ago my friend! lol Unfortunately, I can tell you I learned that lesson the hard way and about the only fruit of the spirit I have known well for the last 17 years is long suffering. But I will have you know last weekend I had the most amazing experience. I threw out 17 years of journaling in which I was trying to 'find' the truth. Why? Because I finally realized that no matter how hard I pushed I was never going to open the book in Revelation that no one was found worthy to open with the approach I had been taking. I finally just told God I give up and repented and let go of so much darkness, frustration and anger that had built up inside of me for many years. I truly did a 180 and turned to face God once again as the man I had become and told him that I had nothing for him. I was no one in the middle of nowhere and didn't know my head from my you know what. And at that moment I was reminded of God running to the prodical son. What a gift forgiveness is. What a gift.

I have learned so much through all this that I am eager to share with the world some of which I have already disclosed in some of my other posts. So, though my story may be hard to stomach or even believe it has made me the man I am today and for that I am very grateful.

Thanks for your reply. Indeed I have gone about this whole thing wrong...but hey, God's power is made perfect in weakness. So therefore I will boost of my weaknesses all the more!!!

Thanks for the good news brother.

joshcorn · Oct 28, 2017

theoneinsidethezero said:
Where were you 17 years ago my friend! lol Unfortunately, I can tell you I learned that lesson the hard way and about the only fruit of the spirit I have known well for the last 17 years is long suffering. But I will have you know last weekend I had the most amazing experience. I threw out 17 years of journaling in which I was trying to 'find' the truth. Why? Because I finally realized that no matter how hard I pushed I was never going to open the book in Revelation that no one was found worthy to open with the approach I had been taking. I finally just told God I give up and repented and let go of so much darkness, frustration and anger that had built up inside of me for many years. I truly did a 180 and turned to face God once again as the man I had become and told him that I had nothing for him. I was no one in the middle of nowhere and didn't know my head from my you know what. And at that moment I was reminded of God running to the prodical son. What a gift forgiveness is. What a gift.

I have learned so much through all this that I am eager to share with the world some of which I have already disclosed in some of my other posts. So, though my story may be hard to stomach or even believe it has made me the man I am today and for that I am very grateful.

Thanks for your reply. Indeed I have gone about this whole thing wrong...but hey, God's power is made perfect in weakness. So therefore I will boost of my weaknesses all the more!!!

Do you have link to you other posts

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

joshcorn said:
Do you have link to you other posts

You are very welcome. Here are my other posts. Keep in mind I am still working out my own salvation in line with 2 Timothy 4:5 and have a long way to go. But I love all this stuff. I feel so alive again. Like I had been carrying the plank in my eye on my back for 17 years and am finally free of it. Now if I could only see clearly

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christianforumsuser · Oct 28, 2017

I read some of what you wrote. Please avoid worldly sinners and false prophets and find someone to teach you what the intentions of the Bible are or else. Don't add or subtract from the Word.
If you keep going around in various theories on your own or with others what will you ever end up with. Ultimately you need knowledge and understanding but also faith and love, but not apart from His Word.
Genesis writes about the beginning and Revelation tells us other important things. You might think you can skip to debating ideas but I really hope people can learn what I have even if it's not the way that looks nice and easy.

Little Lantern · Oct 28, 2017

Greetings and welcome to CF, @theoneinsidethezero. May you find good fellowship and godly encouragement here. So very glad you're back in the fold. Your username reminds me of a vision I had many years ago. The LORD showed me through the vision, how hard I was working to do everything right, but that I would never succeed. Furthermore, He had made everything right already so I didn't need to. At the end of the vision a load had been lifted off me and I saw myself as a big fat (happy) zero, and it was His job to fill it, not mine. Makes me smile to remember that.

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

christianforumsuser said:
I read some of what you wrote. Please avoid worldly sinners and false prophets and find someone to teach you what the intentions of the Bible are or else. Don't add or subtract from the Word.
If you keep going around in various theories on your own or with others what will you ever end up with. Ultimately you need knowledge and understanding but also faith and love, but not apart from His Word.
Genesis writes about the beginning and Revelation tells us other important things. You might think you can skip to debating ideas but I really hope people can learn what I have even if it's not the way that looks nice and easy.

Okay I hear what you are saying. But before I go find someone to teach me the what the intentions of the Bible are maybe you could help tell me who that is when you consider the following:

In Matthew 24:4 Jesus says, "Watch out that no one deceives you". For many will come in my name claiming 'I am the Christ' and deceive many (Matthew 24:5). Later in that same chapter, we find out there are also many false prophets that will arise in the end of time (Matthew 24:11). And we already know the Father of Lies (John 8:44) is out to get us. And in other places in the Bible it talks about the secret power of lawlessness trying to trick us (2 Thessalonians 2:7) and that many antichrists shall arise (1 John 2:18). Not to mention 'The Antichrist' (1 John 2:22) and 'The False Prophet' (Revelation 19:20). And if all that isn't challenge enough God sends some a powerful delusion (2 Thessalonians 2:11) so that they will believe a lie. Follow that up with the fact that we can deceive ourselves (James 1:22) and it would seem that just about everything and everyone is out to deceive us. So, how can we possibly 'Watch out that no deceives us' when it is clear no one on Earth at this moment knows what the truth even is (Matthew 24:27).

Something to think about my friend and something I gave careful thought to 17 years ago!

But if you say that the Church is the place to go I'd have to say really? 33,000 different denominations and counting with new churches forming on every block. Does truth divide us? Can a divided house stand?

So did you have someone on this planet in mind when you made such a recommendation to me? Anyone you could point me to. Just let me know. I used to look for guidance outside myself until I came to realize the truth that the one who is in me is greater than the one(s) who are in the world. There is no greater teacher than he who knit me together in my mothers womb and has been with me from the beginning.

But honestly thank you for taking the time to reply here. And let me know if you would have anything else you would like to say.

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I re-read your thoughtful post about finding the truth in the word and just want to comment on that briefly as well. John say in the beginning was the word. Deu. 30:14-15 says the Word is very near you...see I have set before you this day life and good death and evil and later in the Bible we are told to rightly divide the word of truth. Tell me then do you know of anyone living today who knows how to rightly divide the word of truth so that no contradiction remains. In other word interpret it perfectly. Of course not. None of us can. In fact the Bible is the book in Revelation that no one was found worthy to open or even look inside.

So while I do venture into the Bible or the word of God I also know from ephesians that the word of God is the sword of the spirit that spins every which way to guard the way to the tree of life. This is a topic for another conversation but you can easily see this in the symbolism behind the crown of thorns around the mind of Christ of which the Bible says 'Your way will be blocked with thorns and thistles.'

Anyhow, sorry for that tangent. It's just that no one can teach me what the Bible says or how to interpret it because no one knows how. So my best bet is the one who lives in me hence the one inside the zero!

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

Little Lantern said:
Greetings and welcome to CF, @theoneinsidethezero. May you find good fellowship and godly encouragement here. So very glad you're back in the fold. Your username reminds me of a vision I had many years ago. The LORD showed me through the vision, how hard I was working to do everything right, but that I would never succeed. Furthermore, He had made everything right already so I didn't need to. At the end of the vision a load had been lifted off me and I saw myself as a big fat (happy) zero, and it was His job to fill it, not mine. Makes me smile to remember that.

Awesome vision my friend and not far off from the meaning behind the one inside the zero. It's kinda like this: I am death but that which lives in me is life or the one who is in me is greater than the one who is in the world. Or look at it this way 'What God opens no one can shut. What God shuts no one can open' Who can change this? No. 1! Okay so that's a stretch. But yeah it's a fun one. Have a great day and by all means if you have any more insight throw it my way!

christianforumsuser · Oct 28, 2017

You must be quite an idiot to be fooled to thinking one of those is right...or are you gonna try them all one by one? If you read the Bible maybe you'd know it says if you ask and seek you shall find. Then again that might only apply to the chosen people, but you seem to assume nobody knows the truth only because you've been around a grand number of mere years as if you've seen it all.
I actually have some reading material that explains more than you could expect to imagine and contact with some of the greatest albeit might seem lowly. I really ended up finding the most precious thing in the world and it might be so remarkable that a man would have his heart and mind on anything else.

christianforumsuser · Oct 28, 2017

Looking at what I wrote I'm hoping that made some sense as it did when I wrote it.
If I could explain my intention that might help. But I don't want anyone getting lured in by all the soothing sweet voices and fun activities if it only leads them to secular things disguised as being godly. If I called you a genius you might take a liking to that and reject hearing even God's Word!

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

christianforumsuser said:
You must be quite an idiot to be fooled to thinking one of those is right...or are you gonna try them all one by one? If you read the Bible maybe you'd know it says if you ask and seek you shall find. Then again that might only apply to the chosen people, but you seem to assume nobody knows the truth only because you've been around a grand number of mere years as if you've seen it all.
I actually have some reading material that explains more than you could expect to imagine and contact with some of the greatest albeit might seem lowly. I really ended up finding the most precious thing in the world and it might be so remarkable that a man would have his heart and mind on anything else.

I'm an idiot huh? Interesting way to love thy neighbor as thyself. Thanks but no thanks for the rest of your advice. Most people don't accept advice that follows an insult.

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

christianforumsuser said:
Looking at what I wrote I'm hoping that made some sense as it did when I wrote it.
If I could explain my intention that might help. But I don't want anyone getting lured in by all the soothing sweet voices and fun activities if it only leads them to secular things disguised as being godly. If I called you a genius you might take a liking to that and reject hearing even God's Word!

No worries. Just try to be careful with your choice of words out there. It is good to know your heart now but from your last post I was thrown off by it. This channel has many non Christians on it and they are watching you and me for that matter. We all must be a witness of God's love for them and not be threatened by by what God's is teaching them. I don't know if that makes any sense. Sorry if I am unclear.

christianforumsuser · Oct 28, 2017

You should even accept what is past your comprehension else you might never learn.
If you don't want to hear it of course I won't just argue for no reason. I do understand, as I've been there, but I'm saying something you might not want to hear so easily.

theoneinsidethezero · Oct 28, 2017

christianforumsuser said:
You should even accept what is past your comprehension else you might never learn.
If you don't want to hear it of course I won't just argue for no reason. I do understand, as I've been there, but I'm saying something you might not want to hear so easily.

By all means please enlighten me and I mean that. God has something very special for you to tell me and help me to understand. In Romans it speaks of 'That which may be known of God' which implies that there is also that which cannot be known of God. But please if you have something to tell me let it out. I want to hear it and hope it will benefit us all no matter how hard it might be to swallow. Just give some thought to how you compose it so that people can see it as you do. Looking forward to all you might have to say!

christianforumsuser · Oct 28, 2017

If you want easy words, you're bound to find any number of places. But see that I'm not just running off once someone doesn't treat me so friendly, if that's supposed to indicate I'm more than slightly serious.
Such followers are a dime a dozen...actually there seems to be quite a bit of money in it. I've heard people blatantly talk about how to become successful or giving advice how to live in the world.
That's not to say I can't go prioritize talking to someone else, but clearly I'm still here writing because I say I want to be invested in the eternal things properly.
I can talk about me, about business, family, anything seen or maybe if I knew about the unseen more I could tell all about it but what use is that to a secular person. But again my intention is not to flatter nor insult, but I've said these things while some people prefer flattery.
I could bow to you how some people might to gain a follower. Really though wouldn't that set an example against that of the Bible.
There's people out there who'd die for a chance to have the promised things. There's some who might not seem so much like that. I hope I can have a people to go to God clean if that's His will.

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