Okay, heres the story.
I'm 22. Young right? Well I find myself redefining the nature of my exsitince. Like alot of gentlemen my age, I enjoyed going out to establishments that serve alcoholic bevarages and meeting ladies. Infact, I was able to fufill teenage dreams of actually "picking up" these girls and particpate in mutual sexual relations.
Ever since I enlisted in the Army, I went from a skinny, unsocial geek to a fit, social geek with enough confidence to actually score. Mission accomplished right?
Man I wish. These past few years I've been in the Army, I've done alot of things. Infact, alot of these deeds have earned me some nick names in the barracks that can be worn as badges of honor. However, while it gets me cheers and respect amoung the guys, I really shudder at the thought of people on the outside hearing some of these deeds.
In reflection, I'm almost ashamed (almost). I mean, none of these stories I would tell my mother, or for that matter, a girl I care about. It's even come to the point now, where I have no desire to go out and engage in meaningless sex.
Thats the heart of it, right there. I live in a testosrome charged enviroment, where going out, getting drunk and bringing home a gal is the standard, and when I could finally met and sometimes exceede that standard, I get a case of the morals.
So I stopped. Just like that. Just stopped going out all togther. My friends tell me, it's becuase I'm getting old. Now, for some of you people that always haven't lived the pious life, such as myself, did you guys experince this like me? Just, out of the blue? Am I getting older or did something happen when I wasn't looking?
Can't find anyone in my immediate area that can empathize.