Dear Lord,
I want to thank You for everything You've done for me, especially recently. I don't know what I would have done without You. So often we only praise and thank You for the good things You do for us -- when we are happy, but that's not what this is about.
I want to thank You for the trails I've suffered through lately. They've helped me to really see what life is about -- You. It was so easy to believe in You and to get to know You, but I never really saw You with as much clarity as I do now. I never realized how awfully incapable I am on my own and how, even when I was trying to rely on You, I often put too much faith in myself. I was blind to what it really means when one lets You take control.
This last December I saw how weak I was. I realized I was not able to continue, and I saw You there beside me. I could see the love on Your face. I could hear You pleading with me, that I would only stop trying to walk and let You carry me. How much You wanted to help me, like You did Your children in Jerusalem (Matt. 23:37). Yet it hurt so bad. The hand that reached out in love and compassion, is the same hand that allowed him to die in the first place. How easy I could have turned You away! How desperately I wanted to know why You would do this, both to him and myself. I knew that Satan was whispering in my ear, telling me not to take Your hand. He wanted me to be mad at You and to believe it was justified.
Oh, how much I wanted to believe him! How easy it would have been. Yet, had I, I would have been crushed under the weight of my grief. All too well I saw the paths before me, and I chose You. I cried out to you, and you listened. You helped me. At the lowest point in my life, You saved me. I gave up all of my efforts and let you lift me up and carry me.
Thank you, my Lord. There are no words or actions I can ever do to make it up to You, or to deserve the love and mercy You show me. Guide me, oh God! Use me for whatever You will. I have made up my mind, that I shall trust You completely. In the things I do not understand, during the trials and pain that I must endure, I trust You. You know what is right and will do no wrong, no matter how it may seem to us, sinful humans.
Please, Lord, guide your people that we may walk with You. No matter how many times we stumble or turn away, keep pleading with us! For Your face, full of love, is the only true rest and joy we shall have. I long to be with You one day, in the Kingdom You have set up for us! I plead that it may be soon, that the pain may pass away. Yet, Your will is perfect. If it means we must wait for longer than we shall live, so be it. Be with us and sustain us as we wait, oh God. Keep us on Your path, and do not forget us. Not because of anything we have done, but because of your mercy and love.
Again, I thank You. I look forward to every trial, every joy, and every moment in this life and the eternal life to come that I may be in Your sight and with You.
Your Grateful and Unworthy Servant, Your Child in Christ,
Sarah
I want to thank You for everything You've done for me, especially recently. I don't know what I would have done without You. So often we only praise and thank You for the good things You do for us -- when we are happy, but that's not what this is about.
I want to thank You for the trails I've suffered through lately. They've helped me to really see what life is about -- You. It was so easy to believe in You and to get to know You, but I never really saw You with as much clarity as I do now. I never realized how awfully incapable I am on my own and how, even when I was trying to rely on You, I often put too much faith in myself. I was blind to what it really means when one lets You take control.
This last December I saw how weak I was. I realized I was not able to continue, and I saw You there beside me. I could see the love on Your face. I could hear You pleading with me, that I would only stop trying to walk and let You carry me. How much You wanted to help me, like You did Your children in Jerusalem (Matt. 23:37). Yet it hurt so bad. The hand that reached out in love and compassion, is the same hand that allowed him to die in the first place. How easy I could have turned You away! How desperately I wanted to know why You would do this, both to him and myself. I knew that Satan was whispering in my ear, telling me not to take Your hand. He wanted me to be mad at You and to believe it was justified.
Oh, how much I wanted to believe him! How easy it would have been. Yet, had I, I would have been crushed under the weight of my grief. All too well I saw the paths before me, and I chose You. I cried out to you, and you listened. You helped me. At the lowest point in my life, You saved me. I gave up all of my efforts and let you lift me up and carry me.
Thank you, my Lord. There are no words or actions I can ever do to make it up to You, or to deserve the love and mercy You show me. Guide me, oh God! Use me for whatever You will. I have made up my mind, that I shall trust You completely. In the things I do not understand, during the trials and pain that I must endure, I trust You. You know what is right and will do no wrong, no matter how it may seem to us, sinful humans.
Please, Lord, guide your people that we may walk with You. No matter how many times we stumble or turn away, keep pleading with us! For Your face, full of love, is the only true rest and joy we shall have. I long to be with You one day, in the Kingdom You have set up for us! I plead that it may be soon, that the pain may pass away. Yet, Your will is perfect. If it means we must wait for longer than we shall live, so be it. Be with us and sustain us as we wait, oh God. Keep us on Your path, and do not forget us. Not because of anything we have done, but because of your mercy and love.
Again, I thank You. I look forward to every trial, every joy, and every moment in this life and the eternal life to come that I may be in Your sight and with You.
Your Grateful and Unworthy Servant, Your Child in Christ,
Sarah