Thank you (girls), careful, you other guys are beginning to sound a bit like Pharasies, discussing the "level" of my sin, so as to make my case a case of judgment. I welcome any and all replies though, and appreciate the time and effort one puts into a post.
It seems my sin is in question, my sin is not greater than that of any other man, I have overcome some things, some "sins" in my life, but I have yet to nip in the bud, a simple thing like smoking. But make no mistake about it, I have overcome certain sins that I use to do in life.
I used to surround myself with believers by going to church, but I found the churches to be much of the same thing here, matters like wanting to measure ones sin out, so as to make their cases, cases for judgment, and trying to settle whether the matter was just or not, "Do not Judge" remember. And, this world is not just, we must remember that too.
I don't feel it's justified that I should lose my home, and my love (wifey). But, People are treated unjustly in this world all the time, and many have it a lot worse off than me, I am aware of that.
I came here because I love Christians, there the people that are there to lift another one up from the ground, to console and comfort people, to help people start over. I love the giving hearts and spirits among Christians, I would love to be one of them (one of the ones "able" to offer help) but right now I am one in need.
If I ever get my life turned around someday, I hope to be able to be in a position where I can be one of the ones helping others out. I consider Christians (all Christians) my brothers, and I came to my brothers in need. And I have gotten alot of helpful advice, for those of you that supplied it, thank you.
Anyways, still don't know what I'm going to do, but thank all of you for your replies