I wasn't planning on writing today, but working on some other stuff on the computer, so why not.
I still haven't made a decision whether or not I'm going to go. I can't believe it, "I" am actually nervous. I'm the one on the edge of my seat for a change (I'm keeping my own self there). Doesn't feel good.
I certainly don't want to miss something as important and once in a lifetime as this! I'm sure I'll regret it and kick myself major later.
Though, I also don't want to mess anything up either. However, I've messed up things before over lessor reasons.
So I guess, the former is greater than the latter.
Maybe I'm just shakey about going somewhere big without my other half. You just get so used to things after so long.
I'm also wondering about someone who shall remain nameless. I wonder what's going on with them & me. I am clueless. Everything is maybe this, maybe that.
I mean I do like trying to figure out "puzzles & mysteries", but I also like to get the answers eventually. Progress is good... It's a motivator to keep you going. Guess I just have to get comfortable with moving slow.I know I need to walk in more patience. The Lord keeps me together.
Prayer is relaxing for me, and sometimes music is too, although it can as easily stir me up.
Maybe I also need more things to keep my mind busy...
After awhile if you can't get the answers to a question /problem, you start to feel stuck & kind of hopeless. Like with a crashed hard drive. I tried this and that, but couldn't extract any info from it, nor re-partition it, or couldn't even format it.
Now it's on my shelf, where it will sit. (probably till I die, or hoping for when a new program comes out that can help me do something with it. (Even if I could, I wouldn't pay $500-$1000 for data recovery). I really hate losing anything. Ha, I had to go through a minor trauma, getting myself to face it, and admit I may never get that data back..
I still haven't made a decision whether or not I'm going to go. I can't believe it, "I" am actually nervous. I'm the one on the edge of my seat for a change (I'm keeping my own self there). Doesn't feel good.
I certainly don't want to miss something as important and once in a lifetime as this! I'm sure I'll regret it and kick myself major later.
Though, I also don't want to mess anything up either. However, I've messed up things before over lessor reasons.
So I guess, the former is greater than the latter.
Maybe I'm just shakey about going somewhere big without my other half. You just get so used to things after so long.
I'm also wondering about someone who shall remain nameless. I wonder what's going on with them & me. I am clueless. Everything is maybe this, maybe that.
I mean I do like trying to figure out "puzzles & mysteries", but I also like to get the answers eventually. Progress is good... It's a motivator to keep you going. Guess I just have to get comfortable with moving slow.I know I need to walk in more patience. The Lord keeps me together.
Prayer is relaxing for me, and sometimes music is too, although it can as easily stir me up.
Maybe I also need more things to keep my mind busy...
After awhile if you can't get the answers to a question /problem, you start to feel stuck & kind of hopeless. Like with a crashed hard drive. I tried this and that, but couldn't extract any info from it, nor re-partition it, or couldn't even format it.
Now it's on my shelf, where it will sit. (probably till I die, or hoping for when a new program comes out that can help me do something with it. (Even if I could, I wouldn't pay $500-$1000 for data recovery). I really hate losing anything. Ha, I had to go through a minor trauma, getting myself to face it, and admit I may never get that data back..