Im one of the lucky ones I guess. Im still alive, looks like I will make it. Meaning, I wont be checking out early, most of my mental stuff is under control. It should get better. Well, its not all under control, its my view of it. Im still ruptured... the real me is coming into play.. taking over again, sorta...
Im going to learn how to talk to people again...
So many people are cruel with no conscious. They are little better then murderers. Or, they are the same: murderers.
The girls Ive met are sociopaths. Something is wrong.. Something is wrong with the world.
The nature of this world is beyond horror. Ive seen it, Ive been on both sides of the world. I don't know what to think...
God died that I could see the truth. I see it. I know I haven't seen all of it. I hope I don't need to see more of it.. Except I would see it if that could help the poor children that are destroyed.. Their lives are doomed before they are born. ITs not right, its not fair. It makes no sense.
The next several months are going to lonely strange times for me... Very lonely and very hard. I think I will pray for other people.. I have to have a better relationship with God.. I have to if Im going to survive.
The fact that I have God... makes all the difference. Im bouncing back, and that is what counts. ... Im not bouncing back very well, I don't have a family system doing the work. Its just me and God, and what ever recovery system he has sent me.. Ive had some experiences. Rippers... Ive survived.
Im going to learn how to talk to people again...
So many people are cruel with no conscious. They are little better then murderers. Or, they are the same: murderers.
The girls Ive met are sociopaths. Something is wrong.. Something is wrong with the world.
The nature of this world is beyond horror. Ive seen it, Ive been on both sides of the world. I don't know what to think...
God died that I could see the truth. I see it. I know I haven't seen all of it. I hope I don't need to see more of it.. Except I would see it if that could help the poor children that are destroyed.. Their lives are doomed before they are born. ITs not right, its not fair. It makes no sense.
The next several months are going to lonely strange times for me... Very lonely and very hard. I think I will pray for other people.. I have to have a better relationship with God.. I have to if Im going to survive.
The fact that I have God... makes all the difference. Im bouncing back, and that is what counts. ... Im not bouncing back very well, I don't have a family system doing the work. Its just me and God, and what ever recovery system he has sent me.. Ive had some experiences. Rippers... Ive survived.