Im glad I have places to blog!
Im in situations with people that want attention; want to be noticed as stars! or celebs! Specifically when its my time to be noticed in a legitimate way! They want to rob me because I am legitimately working hard and they are not!
They are causing havoc.. Im having to dance around them! Its horrible!
I will never understand how a person can see me as a lier when Im telling the truth from the beginning.. if they give me credit for telling the truth, they also must give me the status for the authentic experiences that brought these truths. If they accept these truths, they must give credit of bravery, hardship and sacrifice, necessary to have accomplished these tasks... THey wont! Im not sure what the big deal is! THey are robbers? is that it?! I don't know!
I am attempting to grow, and Im making lots of enemies doing so!
At some point the PTSD rage will go down, and I will not have to defend myself! I will heal up a bit more!
I am on my knees to God, and I have a problem with God, as I want him to worship me! because I hate him and I want him to bow down to me!
Im a very angry child! I, me, and God had no right hurting me or allowing it!
So I have allot more to talk about with God! Its that "Area" I have to work on! its bowing down where I was destroyed and don't trust anyone!
I am already bowing down because Im getting more honest with myself and those around me!
Im in situations with people that want attention; want to be noticed as stars! or celebs! Specifically when its my time to be noticed in a legitimate way! They want to rob me because I am legitimately working hard and they are not!
They are causing havoc.. Im having to dance around them! Its horrible!
I will never understand how a person can see me as a lier when Im telling the truth from the beginning.. if they give me credit for telling the truth, they also must give me the status for the authentic experiences that brought these truths. If they accept these truths, they must give credit of bravery, hardship and sacrifice, necessary to have accomplished these tasks... THey wont! Im not sure what the big deal is! THey are robbers? is that it?! I don't know!
I am attempting to grow, and Im making lots of enemies doing so!
At some point the PTSD rage will go down, and I will not have to defend myself! I will heal up a bit more!
I am on my knees to God, and I have a problem with God, as I want him to worship me! because I hate him and I want him to bow down to me!
Im a very angry child! I, me, and God had no right hurting me or allowing it!
So I have allot more to talk about with God! Its that "Area" I have to work on! its bowing down where I was destroyed and don't trust anyone!
I am already bowing down because Im getting more honest with myself and those around me!