As I get stronger, I look back at what makes me stronger. I got caught up in something that almost destroyed me. I got caught by someone that could have destroyed me, and later, tried to destroy me.
I can forgive most things. Im having a hard time with the issue of betrayal. I will forgive of course, seems to be taking longer, As the reframing of the events suggest a different light upon the offenders...
The first thing I notice: I mean nothing to anyone. Also, my feelings mean nothing. and, Im forgotten. The person moves on to someone else.. unbelievable.
The only course I have to take, is to say good by for ever, and this is fine with these people, they have moved on from me long ago...
Its hard when you are fooled into thinking someone is a good person, only to find out later, they are a criminal in all things.
I think the hardest thing is being humiliated and degraded by the same people that a month ago, where cheering you on as interested parties.
Something horrible about betrayal. These people don't care about the torture Im going through. They set me to be a fool in front of everyone. They were playing games all the time.
The betrayal is that Im a weakling... So, my status as dropped and their status is now on top; as if that is all that matters in a relationship, finding someone with status!
Im treated at the lowest end of the lowest... Im hated as a loser, the biggest loser in the group.
Im trying to deal with that last section that indicates the kind of people I was associating with. Im starting to put the pieces together and come up with a bunch of scumbags, nothing lower... Im the fool in the group. That is what they are trying to create, because they are my enemy..
Most importantly I take it to God. God must come first in situations like this, that I know Im valued if others wont....
I was duped because they knew I was stupid and arrogant, at the lowest level of status and they are going to prove it, even if it means I have to leave.
I can forgive most things. Im having a hard time with the issue of betrayal. I will forgive of course, seems to be taking longer, As the reframing of the events suggest a different light upon the offenders...
The first thing I notice: I mean nothing to anyone. Also, my feelings mean nothing. and, Im forgotten. The person moves on to someone else.. unbelievable.
The only course I have to take, is to say good by for ever, and this is fine with these people, they have moved on from me long ago...
Its hard when you are fooled into thinking someone is a good person, only to find out later, they are a criminal in all things.
I think the hardest thing is being humiliated and degraded by the same people that a month ago, where cheering you on as interested parties.
Something horrible about betrayal. These people don't care about the torture Im going through. They set me to be a fool in front of everyone. They were playing games all the time.
The betrayal is that Im a weakling... So, my status as dropped and their status is now on top; as if that is all that matters in a relationship, finding someone with status!
Im treated at the lowest end of the lowest... Im hated as a loser, the biggest loser in the group.
Im trying to deal with that last section that indicates the kind of people I was associating with. Im starting to put the pieces together and come up with a bunch of scumbags, nothing lower... Im the fool in the group. That is what they are trying to create, because they are my enemy..
Most importantly I take it to God. God must come first in situations like this, that I know Im valued if others wont....
I was duped because they knew I was stupid and arrogant, at the lowest level of status and they are going to prove it, even if it means I have to leave.