I never come on here anymore because this site...I really find no god anymore. How can I? I'm way to stuck, I keep asking for help and he doesn't answer.
I've made up my mind, I've decided not to stick around to see judgment day. I've given up entirely to the devil because hes more powerful than God now. Well...enjoy Sanctuary when you go there.
Prayer can no longer save me. God can no longer get to me, my disease wins. I can't go on anymore, going from therapy sessions to seeing psychiatrists and psychologists and having to lie to each and every one of them because of my parents are there. I'm tired of being put on different medications, being drugged every day and having a fuzzy mind and not able to control my own emotions.
Most of all, I'm tired of Christians telling me I'm going to Hell. I'm tired of overzealous people who don't know what it's like to be stuck inside their own head, screaming for a god who won't answer. I'm tired of those overzealous Christians who think they own this planet, think they're constantly under attack when they don't even pay attention to what their OWN PEOPLE ARE DOING TO THOSE WHO HAVE THEIR OWN RIGHTS TO DO WHAT THEY WANT, WHO CAN'T HELP THEIR SEXUALITY.
So, admins, once you see this journal, BAN ME.
I don't need this account anymore, anyways. I'm done.
I've made up my mind, I've decided not to stick around to see judgment day. I've given up entirely to the devil because hes more powerful than God now. Well...enjoy Sanctuary when you go there.
Prayer can no longer save me. God can no longer get to me, my disease wins. I can't go on anymore, going from therapy sessions to seeing psychiatrists and psychologists and having to lie to each and every one of them because of my parents are there. I'm tired of being put on different medications, being drugged every day and having a fuzzy mind and not able to control my own emotions.
Most of all, I'm tired of Christians telling me I'm going to Hell. I'm tired of overzealous people who don't know what it's like to be stuck inside their own head, screaming for a god who won't answer. I'm tired of those overzealous Christians who think they own this planet, think they're constantly under attack when they don't even pay attention to what their OWN PEOPLE ARE DOING TO THOSE WHO HAVE THEIR OWN RIGHTS TO DO WHAT THEY WANT, WHO CAN'T HELP THEIR SEXUALITY.
So, admins, once you see this journal, BAN ME.
I don't need this account anymore, anyways. I'm done.