My December is starting out to be unordinary as I find myself heading into a drug treatment program. This is my own voluntary self choosing so not an intervention. Those always failed. You must change your entire mindset and give it all to God before you can let ego and pride go. Both of which I have abused for far too long. I'm nervous,happy,wired and wondering how to spend this last day/evening. Family is all around me but I feel a need to be alone. Big survival mode as usual..I can do this I say.