Taking a break

Im taking a break from the 12 a clock meetings: a girl I like is in those meetings and I cannot approach her. My feelings seem blocked by her. I think I will give her what she wants, and it gives me an excuse to leave the meeting place, I will stay away, its time.

God is not calling me to stay in those meetings, He is asking me to worship him, not the people in the meetings.. He is a jealous God. He knows everything.

I liked this girl, However, I made some mistakes with her and now I cannot take them back. It seems better to leave the meetings. stay away for awhile.

God is leading me in another direction until it is safe. I get pulled in by pretty girls.. Its like being slowly pulled down a whirlpool. I don't feel a thing until its to late... I can feel myself loosing myself.
Im being made to feel guilty because Im bashful and scared to approach beautiful women that like me. It scares me, and I am bashful. I didn't know it was the end of the world. Im made to feel like Im half a man. I not going to stand for that. I will leave... and come back at a later date. A much later date. I need serenity and a break in another direction.

I will keep trusting God...